me and my teddy have a secret.

Thursday, January 28, 2010 @09:42

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@09:17

just get out.. stop invading..

enough..

blowing..

biting my tongue to stop menacing words..

deep breath.end

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Wednesday, January 27, 2010 @00:23

黑夜將城市籠罩　想念蔓延在細胞
想妳的擁抱　妳的微笑　想到快要瘋掉
愛妳到莫名其妙　上了癮無可救藥
沒有妳　會死掉

我不再開心的笑　痛苦在胸口燃燒
在妳離開以後　寂寞把我逼進了牆角
不聽別人的勸告　才掉進妳的圈套
現在知道　卻放不掉　世界慢慢的變老

戒不掉對妳的依靠　失去重心該怎麼好
每個表情都能治療　相思的煎熬
戒不掉妳對我的好　像被關在想念的牢
只剩寂寞纏繞著我　我無路可逃

就是戒不掉對妳的依靠

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Tuesday, January 26, 2010 @10:24

everything is slowly falling into place.

everyday is a happy day.

tho' she doesn't understand me at times,

it's kinda funny.

Miscommunication is the cause of alot of things.

but its just LAUGHTER in this.

Demsey is a nice place in the evening & NIGHT too.

where the night is so quiet, and the place so peaceful.

I'm at ease eating phish food.

I hope this last. not another infatuation.

I'm a vampire with no fangs.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Friday, January 22, 2010 @14:36

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Wednesday, January 20, 2010 @08:04

I like you for who you are, and you don't have to change any of yourself till now.

say ily when you mean it,

save it if you think you're suppose to say it.

did I start off the wrong foot again?

roaming in Sahara.. where is the legendary water fountain?

right person wrong timing

wrong timing wrong person

right timing wrong person

right person right timing

conclusion: relationship doesn't work with just one person making effort.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Monday, January 18, 2010 @13:58

I just want to release my clenching fist.

cos its hurting so bad that its unbearable.

yell scream.whatever

you left me speechless and aloof.

I don't wish to comment anymore.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Sunday, January 17, 2010 @06:23

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@06:17

im suck with so much work on hand.

homework and revisions!!

definition essay outline up tomorrow. WTF!

I can't find a topic... argh..

someone please screw open that skull and D-I-G...

love is so real

yet

be such an illusion

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Tuesday, January 12, 2010 @19:56

Ooo~~ i sway sway sway...

what now?

I have no freaking idea, just trying to live my life the happiest way it can be.

with no regrets??

please say yes.

I wonder if you can be the one

I look forward to most of the time

from now on.

im so afraid to get hurt or hurt you.

I treasure you so much.

so I don't want you to know what love is.

cos it hurts the most.

and leave scars.

whenever Im alone.

I feel it.

the sadness within is overwhelming.

come people. crowd me. bury me.

so I can escape this pain.

whenever I have time by myself.

I feel it.

the tears generating.

Never let it fall, cos I will never let it fall.

I do not want it to fall.

drown me in alcohol. let me puff your stick.

just a puff to bring me back. to where romance is.

you resemble you.

embrace me.

hold me.

kiss me.

love me.

when? I anticipating something that seems to be impossible

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Monday, January 11, 2010 @09:48

girls come to me when they are upset.

the one I hope to come

kept running

so afraid you will run

therefore im taking it slow

you're new to this

I hope it doesn't scare you off

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@09:42

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Saturday, January 09, 2010 @15:07

true love doesn't exist.
why does drama make it seem like it is the most beautiful thing in the world.

sometimes, thing changed.
hate me.
because of that heart break,
I lost that part of me.
since when I don't know.

I still doesn't understand why,
deep within me.
Im still me.
suppressed.

so afraid that it will get hurt once again

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Thursday, January 07, 2010 @09:51

life is getting a little complicated.

but

manageable.

when school starts, its gonna be back to the

usual boring days.

why can't they come one at a time.

decisions are never easy.

and not my forte.

I can cook and bake.

but I can only do one at a time..

damn period came again.

making me emo and all.

他不爱我牵手的时候太冷清
拥抱的时候不够靠近
他不爱我说话的时候不认真
沉默的时候又太用心
我知道他不爱我
他的眼神说出他的心
我看透了他的心还有别人逗留的背影
他的回忆清除得不够乾净
我看到了他的心演的全是他和她的电影
他不爱我尽管如此他还是赢走了我的心

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@09:46

Parents are just so them.

argh.

thought grounding is for the western.

and oops.

its on me.

fucked up

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Wednesday, January 06, 2010 @19:52

this song is so NICE...

so how..

its so sad.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@14:21

My goodness, I actually found out how retarded I am thru Lan Game?

mm~ nono, practice makes perfect. =)

I always believe in it.

out of no where, we seem to set up a LAN game buddies thing.

members are. YourMother/LPTB,Jess/TimoTim, Death,Allin/HoHo. J,H (they are playing others).

wow wow wow.. Lan is making every one exhausted, especially me!

I think I can cycle for 425546km and not feel tired. but computer for 3hrs make my eyes pop out.

Can't wait for my Hi,SweetHeart eps to come to me.

Come to mama! ^^

Been a great week before school starts.

gonna mss it like MAD!

ok...

I see how little I've been working and

this means.

I NEED A NEW JOB.

Currently thinking of what to eat.

its always bothering me,

at the end of the day I wont be eating.

we're not what you guys think we are

the closeness is bringing wrong signal?

Im not sure what it is now.

I just want it to be like this and nothing more.

hope it last.

to prevent hurt and pain.

its all fun and enjoyable.

always like this isn't it.

for what spoil it.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Tuesday, January 05, 2010 @12:10

Im cacooned up,

the sunlight is shining RIGHT into my room.. how irritating?

I crawled home at 6am this morning, and

zomg, my brain is still filled with L4D2.

Hahahaha... how lame can I get..

playing lan?..... HUH?! I had great fun tho'...

Yesterday was filled with XinYi. Timo. Jowy.Juliet.

roamed town, then AMK, Lan shop(ooooh myyyyy) addictive thing.

anyways. Im just waiting for the plan for today.

SENTOSA!!!

the 'beautiful' sea... 'nice' beach...''hot' girls (oops.. eh..)

I heard over the radio this morning that its gonna have a heavy downpour this afternoon.

byebye tanning.. hello volley ball...

I'm feeling old...

shit!

haha...

I had my hair cut,

mm~ I think I look cuter.

but noone actually agrees, since when they does.

right?

apparently they just like to "huh, got meh, like the same"

haha! I just like to take it as

"wow... piping hot, extremely cute."

haha! ok my imagination is running.

I never stop imagining.

live with me or...

dont bother.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Monday, January 04, 2010 @10:25

Guitar is standing in my room. and

Im loving it. tho' it hurts..

its my favorite pain for now..

can't wait to be able to strum a song out!

what should my FIRST SONG be??? (need time to think..)

ooohh~ Im open to suggestions =)

My goodness.

I wonder does our world run on different time system?

mm~~ sometimes I just can't stand people being late.

and if you want to be late, have the heart to just inform,

that turn me off when rubber time gets a little out of hand.

sorry Im just a egoistic dude.

but!

I just want to think that Im egocentric that's all.

have been drinking.. pub-ing.. chilling..

is that life?

waking up in the noon when its already mid day?

I suppose it is for this few days..

before sccchhhhoooooolllll starts.. (dread)

I foresee myself mugging .. and mugging

in the library.

and I will soon smell like the library.

ah! what happens to my JUICY COUTURE, DKNY, ARMANI??

oohhh~~

I've got a FANTASTIC JEANS over the weekend

G-STAR!

that's my life for now.

it looks tight on me.

so STOP EATING

Dear God.

thank you for making my days all so fulfilling

and drunky.

I'm appreciating every single thing you planned in my life

at this point of time.

I thank you for them being in my life.

for me to be able to give my care and concern to

when Im over flowing with it

and no particular one to concentrate on.

I LOVE SINGING.

amen!

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Friday, January 01, 2010 @15:50

Oh God.

did I wish for romance this new year.

romance romance, oh god romance.

who am i to talk about this, when all I had was 1 totally failed relationship

pretty girls hot babe tall bitches sexy ladies

but I have no courage to lay my hands on

so afraid to lost it

like I've did before.

its hard to let it go when you have already fallen

nothing is what is left

all is what is given

all I want is to

find the right girl

fall in love

and stay right there

kinda tired of love game,

yet Im still in it.

its like joining the triad,

hard to pull away.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@04:28

=) NEW YEAR

as usual have to come up with NYR

-put more energy into studies. (serious business)

-Earn big bucks for future investments(work hard spend less)

-be love and to love

-master the arts of beyond human(selfless,unconditioned love)

-keep my room nice and clean(discipline)

-love my parents

-Holidays(Taiwan,Japan,Island)

-DIET! (damn fat.. hate myself for being fat)

-penting

What's life?

every one on this earth bound to mention that they have no life at least once

I thought that i have no life for awhile..

but it seems t be coming back.

have been drinking for 3 days. and Im like so overpowered by alcohol.

lots of socializing and getting to know new peeps.

now i understand what it means by.. Love is for the lonely mortal

its for people with no friends.

and Love is an illusion. it only happens in movies, and novels, and fairytale.

making it so beautiful that its so deceiving.

there's more to love than to be in love.

anyways.

happy new year peeps. I had a GREAT GREAT new year with tonnes of friends.

and lots of blessings!

I here by wish everyone all the best.. and GOD will watch over us.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy