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Tuesday, July 31, 2007 @22:10

BenBen's day to school (26/07/07)

It was a sunny thursday and I took Benben on his first train ride to school (SP)..
he was monkeying around, looking at his smiling face makes me happy. We're late for art class.. he was a really good boy, sitting alone on the seat.
End of art class, he posed with my model drawing. Ben ben had been kinda quiet for the whole lesson.. but after class, he went around playing with his new friends. He had a great time playing.
Benben during MRTL class.. that's my zebra waiting to be rig.. he is learning 3D maya.. *clap*
This is Benben's first classmate.. her name is Michelle.. *say HI*..
Ben had milo for lunch.. that's his first lunch break..
Ryan's Benben friend.. they became friend during MRTL lesson.. haha.. don't they look alike?
Ben ben can't wait for class to end.. he is disturbing me.. DAMN!!!!
End of lesson.. end of day.. tired, he was sleeping so soundly infront of my blue screen computer in class. how cute can he be?
I place him up on the CPU.. a good night kiss for this little cutie of mine.. He woke up soon later.. climbing here and there.. computer trees we call it.. he is exercising so to say.. enjoying himself..
He is playing with Edward during a shoot.. how cute he is hanging on the pole.. he is the broom man..
For a moment, he wanted to handle the camera..

that's the end of Benben's first day in school.. so welcome so popular.. he made lotsa friends and he is missing 2A06 very much..

-sound asleep Benben-
-sucking his thumb-


Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy


Monday, July 30, 2007 @17:08

A ring that is suppose to be thrown..
it's still stuck on my finger..
why is this so..
Is b'cos, I am still holding on, or is b'cos it is suppose to be with me..

loneliness is hard to resist.
i am glad you are here with me..
i am glad that you are there for me..
i am glad that i have you..
was wondering if one day you are to leave me..
what kind of life will it be..

I am so weird..
i keep telling myself to stop it..
but I am still doing it..

time to wake up..
but I am still sleeping..
please wake me up somehow..
i don't want to be like this all mylife..

my shoulders are meant for someone, not myself..
i wonder why..
i need to cry too..
i feel depress too..
i need a shoulder too..
who is there for me..
you are there..
if you are gone..
who do i go to..

where do i go now
what do i do now
how am i to live my life now
who do i want now
why is this happening

this don't belong to me..
you don't belong to me..
that don't belong to me..
everything don't belong to me..

MY HEART don't Belong to me too..
so don't expect me to know how to love you..

-need love-
zach




Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy


@13:31

I'm so desperate now..
deadline today, and im only 1/4 way done.
how fucked up can life be??

Not like im not interested in modelling,
but is I don't know how to rig the zebra...
*cry*
still so many things to be done..
-report
-presentation
-research

personal problem is so overwhelming..
dammit..
when can there is a problemless day?

when life get tough..
the things I do is to sleep and ignore..
what an irresponsible way of doing things..
*wahaha*
just kidding..
I really have no idea..

it's time for me to do something about my dressing..
my hair..
my outlook..
time for a change for the better I hope..
sometime changes are not all good, tho' I want it to be good..

the class is damn noisy today..
*sigh*
hate noisy places..

mom is asking me to take up driving lesson..
*haha* do i need?
i will when i have the time..
im so freaking busy now ..

off I go do my stuff..
im so stuck in school today..

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy


Saturday, July 28, 2007 @13:59

I'm a Romantic freak who don't know what is REALISTIC

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy


Wednesday, July 25, 2007 @22:42


SP-M
oing on TI Phnom Penh Kampong Speu Combodia

its a confirm trip..
no one object in the family, so I am on for it.

thousand and one thing to do before the trip

-date of departure will be on 2 september 07 to 15 september 07
flight detail depart by Silk Air 8:40(meet 630)
arrival by Silk Air 1810 - 2110

-Packing of computers 1August07 1530

-orientation programme
27August07 (monday) 0900 - 1700

-First Aid Course
28-30 august 07 0900-1700

-Medical checkup

tired tired...
had a meeting just now..
*smile*







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but; i only share it with my teddy


@10:34






















para para Gang.. they are just attractive.. pretty girls..
puppet shop/ teddy shop [so cute I swear]

waiting for bus..
shop that we visit.. cos.. we are just some poor student trying to survive in Japan
Tickets of bullet train Bullet train.. arrival at Hiroshima
Star search and I got her.. wahaha..

HITP students.. they are our guide and we had fun..


Ice cream store.. at ferry terminal

FOOD!!! so hungry.. I am craving for the food in Hiroshima now..

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy


@10:05

back in school doing rigging..

im so full of shit..

the happiest day of my life will be yesterday and the days before...

can life be any better?
it has been REALLY nice to me..

school days..
my stocks are going up and i'm happy..
making profits, that's what I want cos that will be result for CFM.
previous test was great.. 75-90(the whole class)
and I am in the middle.. what the shit isn't it.
CFM is no more worries, had my test last week, and I can overlook it for a while.

Going for Combodia briefing later..
should I go for that trip?
hmm~~ there will be alot to do before going..
if i'm selected, it will be a 2weeks thing..
I am gonna enjoy it, cos I love going overseas, for volunteery work.
i will be tanned.. *smile* how COOL~~
it won't be cool there tho' ..

assignments due dates are very near..
this week will be rigging week (mrtl)
then it will be animation week(AF)
what more can i ask for..
I enjoy doing them, the thing is I AM SO LAZY
I already started, so it is for me to CARRY ON!!

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had been at home eating,
seems like mom is happy with it..
she is not nagging that much anymore..
*smile* good thing.*smile*

As the day pass..
I grew older.. the more things I see..
the more unpure this world is..
I see the bad side of it..
should I be happy that I am growing..
should I be glad that I am in it..

Tears no longer solve problems
laughter doesn't mean happiness
Yes doesn't mean Positive
No is definitely Negative

when I found out that my tears are frozen
I found out that how emotionless I am
it is this world that train me to be like this
cos I finally know that tears no longer helps in situation

crying in silence is what I do.
laughing out loud is what I am doing.
how sad this is..
I no longer can show my true emotion
can I cry when I am hungry? can I cry when I want to sleep? can I cry when I dont like that particular person? can I cry can i cry?
no use crying isn't it.. these are problems to be solved and not cry over..
see how ugly this world is..

glad that I am still me..
i do cry.. alot.. to myself..
when I laugh.. it is cos I am HAPPY..
the thing is the slightiest things can make me Happy and contented..
[childish , yes I am]
do pardon my childishness,
do pardon my stubborness,
do pardon my blurness,
do pardon my heckcare attitude,
do pardon my silliness,
do pardon my silent,
do pardon my not answering to question personality,
do pardon my no comments mouth,
do pardon my crazy brain,
do pardon the incomplete me,
so imcomplete that scare me most of the time..

Like I say..
I am silly for the you,
I am childish for you,
I am who I am..
for you ..

zach










Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy


Tuesday, July 24, 2007 @21:42

I got my reward from you..
so happy..

love you so much to say..



Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy


Monday, July 23, 2007 @09:24

started studying for MLP test..
started doing animation
-modeled a few things
haven't start rigging

I LOVE HOTDOGS!!!

I am fine with life these days..
nothing but work
nothing but notes
nothing but lesson
nothing but school
nothing but lecture
nothing but practical
nothing but assignment
nothing but just my life
I am happy cos of you..
no one else but you
my smile is the most natural for you
my smile is the stupidiest for you
my smile is the silliest for you
my smile is the cheekiest for you
my smile is there just for you

i am kinda broke these days..
not doing any shopping
cos I am going shopping somewhere else..
it is so confirm..
can't wait to go..
SOON!!!!!

shhh~~ its a secret
wahaha

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy


Sunday, July 22, 2007 @17:30

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but; i only share it with my teddy


@12:44

Busy doing my assignments!!!!

so much to do..
so little time..
so lazy..
I am still slacking..
WTF..

been going out late..
I am enjoying my weekends these days..
woots~~
I find the joy of late night..
with some friends..
interesting and fun to be with peeps..

talking about wanting to go overseas..
set..
the place
the date
can't wait to leave this place..
can't wait to throw every shit here and leave..
I want to leave forever..
I want to leave and never come back..
if i can, I will.. now and this moment..
*FLY*

back to doing my work..
stop dreaming..

am i waiting for her?
I don't know..
but i know that i want to see her reply..
i want to hear her voice
i want to see her
i want to talk to her
damn!!!
she is just not talking to me..
what is wrong..
miss her so much
miss her so bad
cos I truly love her
cos I truly want her
shall stop thinking about all this..
she don't need me..
and I promise to let her go when she has to..
this is the time, isnt it?

I will smile and let you go
I will cry inside never let you know
I will hold your hand for the last time, tight but I have to let go
I want to look into your eyes and tell you I LOVE YOU so please go
I want to hug you and join our hearts together for the last time
our hearts meet so hard to part
goodbye seems to be the hardest word
and now I see you online..
my tears flow like the valley

can that be a soing?
-tobecontinue-



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but; i only share it with my teddy


Thursday, July 19, 2007 @13:47

the stocks I am holding is dropping..
and I am losing money..
OMG!!!!
my Assets = my marks

ok.. I shall be patient with it..
what more can I ask for..
the market is never stable..
at least to me till now..
and its been dropping since yesterday around 3pm.
Erwin says its a good time to go in now, cos it's all falling..
hmm~~ will it continue dropping or will it rise after this huge fall..
Nobody knows.

I am having CFM test later..
damn no matter how many times i read through the nots..
i am never confident enough..
just like I am never confident of my choice of stocks I got on hand..

Animating andy..
wahaha..
what more can I do during class..
other than Friendster, Msn, Notes, Movies, Animation..
there seems to be nothing more for me to do..

haven't been drawing for quite some time..
I want to draw..
I want to hold my pencil and start drawing once again..
my dream to just sit at home and draw..
those girls..
those poses..
those bodies..
those face..
damn.. I have no time for it..

finally I touch my keyboard quite alot these days..
just love the way it is..
I can't live without my pencil, my keyboard, my animation ..
what else..

can i just hide away into some place
with just a huge bed
pencil and sketch books
keyboard
Maya
lappy
a simple life is what i am looking forward to.
doing the things I like..
creating my own fantasy..
with the simpliest things that make up my life..

i want to be alone..
far away..
maybe with the one i love..
i want to play her favourite piece everyday
make beautiful music for her..
i can draw her on my sketch book..fill it with her part
i will tell our story with animation and sketches..

I guess i must be tired..
cos seems like I am thinking way too much..
*wahaha*
without dream ..
i am not myself anymore..

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy


Wednesday, July 18, 2007 @09:44

the crowded night .. off I go to Everland with strangers
she is so tall.. even when we are sitting down.. so depressing..
back in time.. the peeps I'm going to live my life with.. what a blessing..
wow... who is that tall person at the back.. my head is at her *****.. camera action
am i seeing things?
rach and stella.. they are TTTttaaalllll.. can i have a latte tall please.
My beloved weiwei... aw.. simply love her to bits
these are the girls i love with my heart.. rach,stella,zab,Su
we are together in one piece.. are we sweet?? oops.. don't be jealous.. cos she is mine

I was wondering...

if I just disappear..


if I just forget everything..

if I just run to a far away land..


if I find someone I love..

if I can be with my dream girl..

if I die..

so many ...IF...
seriously life is getting kinda bored,
i need things to make me excited..

nothing seems to excite me more,
nothing seems to make me look forward to..
oh~~ hold it , I want to talk to her.. >.<
the only thing I'm looking and working towards to..


one more thing,
i'm going overseas soon..
off to ********!!!
YEAH~~!!!!!!

on ****07.. Hmm~~
a place where I can shop with ease,
a place I always visit to shop for shoes and clothings
..
what more..

I want to just stay there for the rest of my life..
away from all problem..

keep it a secret.. i want to leave silently.. and back silently..
shopping list will be out soon..

recently my body seems to be a little weird..

i need to chill it..
its getting very heated up,

I'm not high or anything..
just heated up..
my girlfriend.. *smile* they are one couple.how sweet. and I am jealous.. hmmpss..kiss me if you want, baby..
stop smiling at the camera you idiot..







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but; i only share it with my teddy


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name: Zachery

age: 19/4yrs

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