Thursday, July 30, 2009 @15:16
love hurts.
yet everyone is looking forward to one.
hope to be in one.
I found. love.
wasn't able to stay in it.
regret.
sigh
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Tuesday, July 28, 2009 @18:20
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a song that I am looking forward to everyday at work
at least something. after vanessa leave.
=)
maybe it speaks to me or what.
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
@15:52
shut the fuck up and work.
people at work are pissing me off..
does bar look like a HUGE DUSTBIN.
get things right.. cos I don't really give a damn to who you are.
when its over my limit that's it...
i don't mind losing my job to tell you off so my fellow mates can have a better thing.
rush rush rush.
what's there to rush?
closing should be leisure and pleasure.
not pouring hot water on our feet to make us jump up and down.
argh~~
frozen love so don't ask for too much from me.
I am into playing around now.
anyway true love always end up like fuck.
what's love.
I am out of my fairytale.
someone is taking away that little remains of true love from me.
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Monday, July 20, 2009 @12:27
driving later on.
every lesson brings me closer to my license, thus I am going for each lesson ever so punctually.
with every 'ying' there's a 'guo'
many many chill out session.
I am so in love with those hang around doing nothing.
with my papa,mama, hippo,stephy,jowy, and myself..
card games,drinking,chatting,EATING.
watched Harry Potter the night before,
my gosh, every single one of us had a meeting in the dreams.
eh~ love the effect, the sound... mm~~ what else?
work gonna start soon,
sigh? yeah?
sigh -no more chill out sessions like now.
yeah- money comes in, mostly broke. haha~
in the midst of my every day activity.
you came into my mind.
setting it in a whirl of chaos.
struggled to pull it thru,
like I am in ICU.
we left foot prints in every corner of this island.
i seems to be living in your shadow of your inexistence.
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Friday, July 17, 2009 @19:43
when its gone its gone.
you did it cos of?
i do not know.
that wrench my heart alittle but I still move on.
i just have to face the ugly truth about lots of things.
hoping that it will turn better.
I will lead a happier life from here.
whether to hold on or to let go?
it doesn't at all matters now,
cos its all rubbish.
non existence lies.
never to trust when someone say you're the one.
never to trust when someone say just feel right.
never to trust when someone say love loh.
never to trust when they don't even know you.
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
@09:39
falling into place.
keep moving.
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Wednesday, July 15, 2009 @07:57
home from chalet!!!
great great one.. just hanging.. trying to entertain ourselves.
play kuku games.. to kill time.
argh~ they do not have a court in Coasta Sand resort.
=(
get to play a super huge court captains ball.
I feel old.
great feel to be running like mad. with lungs screaming for air.
mind asking to stop. heart urging forward.
a few incident that happened.
our dear mr nice guy bouncer cut his chin.
bleeding like its free.
what the fuck. it woke me up from my mixed drinks.(drunk)
I am not wasted. i still think logically.
alright. old school way have its own healing.
but still. modern medicine is what we need now.
missing human.
looking for one another.
aw~~ our papa is so anxious...
he's super cute in this way.
hmmm~~ yeah yeah.. we will stay near him. that's what he wanted to ensure safety.
there's a chill period.
then the getting high period.
then the high period.
then the chill off period.
then the heart to heart talk period.
then the sleep like a blangalahhhhh period.
=)
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Tuesday, July 14, 2009 @10:29
love..what is it?I am in a state of love confusion now. mental illness?aiy~ fuck it.my mind.mind is made up of lots of many parts.part of it is a stayer. part of it is a runner. now my life seems to be in a mess..
whirl of love trash.
maybe I am just not suitable to be attach. or be with someone.
I've decided to turn my focus to things
be Frozen in the cave in ICEAGE for as long as it do good to others.
my goals(short)
-License on 28 October 2009
-Renovate my room before school starts in Aug.
my goals(long)
-get to grad in NY(UOB)
-Audi TT at 26years old.(take home income 3.5k)
-Masters by35years old.
my goals(this life)
-migrate to a place where peace is in place with the one I love.(the most?)
-buy a farm (our home)
-have some business
-many houses(I LOVE to make them our HOME)
-couple of kids(adopt?own?)doesn't matter.
-be who I am. =)
-volunteer at Africa,Kenya (flamingo!)
set goals and work towards it when you're lost. it get the complicated yet simple mind clear.
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Saturday, July 11, 2009 @06:14
gonna be the last day in babyface today.
sigh.
been thru a lot.
people come people go.
now it is going leaving us all behind.
happy memories..
plus those scolding..
haha!
hopefully it will be a great new experience again.with old friends.
=)
party tonight peeps!!!!
tuesday! chalet... whee~~ home clothes=swim suit.
can't wait for a day to relax with those working peers...
bathe in the sun. sweat it out on court.
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Thursday, July 09, 2009 @11:17
current status.blank.
current mood. upset.
current condition. insomnia.
current health. anorexic(I hope)
current heart condition. broken.
current rate. real low.
current sugar level. near zero.
current pace. slowly moving.
current happiness level. constant low.
I am a living zombie. =)
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Tuesday, July 07, 2009 @10:37
play ball play ball play ball.
I am into ball.
into sun.
into work.
into tv.
into braces.
into driving.
into DEMSEY!
birthday parties are coming up.
mm~~ many many.
selectively I will go.
depending on my schedules. and my mood.
but some. i just don't want to go.
=)
working at babyface has been great...
last week... *boohuuuhuu*
sigh.
I hope bar stick as bar...
hugs all my bar buddies....
school gonna start in more than a month later.
Seriously I can't wait for it to hurry start..
so I can go for orientation.. and meet new friends.
renovating my little room.
oh gosh~~ I will be such a home dude soon.
hiding in my fantastic room making my own cocktail and watching teevee.
wow~ what a wonderful wonderful idea.
away from the outside.
HEY GIRLS COME OVER TO CHILL...
singapore is getting abit boring... ^^
lots of things happened...
be it funny ones. or whatever stuff..
I just wanna get my head off it.
and live without those worries. or what not.
dear GOD. give me the strength to put everything down.
and move on.
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Sunday, July 05, 2009 @08:15
computer down. finally dug out my laptop to use.
so dusty*sneeze*
I am looking forward to a couple of things this month.
BF bbq*pray hard*
getaway*hope everyone can make it*
Sentosa with the buddies*yeah*
certain things are unexplainable.
I just want to keep it this way.
its about the level.way beyond that level.
learning bball now.
lots of things to absorb.
I am still a sucker at it. -_-
enjoying work everyday.
other than bottle store.
*wahaha* I enjoy it when I am really tired.
bleah~~
School gonna start.
CHEERS!!!
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
