me and my teddy have a secret.

Friday, October 31, 2008 @19:25

I had a new hair cut.
woots~~ short? I guess.
not so emo punky anymore.
neat neat neat..
=)

mom didn't comment much, so I guess its alright.

Halloweeeeeennnn~~~~
didn't really party during this day.
virgin time to barnoners!!!!!!

school was fine, but I do not like being in school.
stuck at fyp. clueless...
how?

I guess is time to take more pictures,
to keep as memories.
ok, kinda girlie.. but still....
hahaha..

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@03:17

hahahahahahaha....
in my comfy PJ, with my chou chou.

taboo... then to play...
god damn...
I do not know how much I drink, or drank.
I can't control my movements, I can't control my thoughts.

great day.
some people just have to leave so early.
there's still bitz of alc in me.
yet to be realise.

i am miss you.
that makes me sad.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Wednesday, October 29, 2008 @12:53

its a super tedious process which can take weeks to do.
im only 1/4 done..
=_=''

at least I got everything.. the footage I mean.
don't think so much.

.I am in this lousy mood today.

certain things are just not what it is.

when you want it this way,

i will not necessary be.

sometimes truth is just so hard to accept.

truth is always ugly. fugly.

I only share my thoughts and emotion to people I trust.

not many.

are you one?

most of the time, I turn to unexpected people for comfort.

contradicting?

my feelings are like mixed fruits.

I love mixed fruits, maybe that's why my life is so F-edup.

I seem to lose the goal in life,

I seem to lose control over my life.

I seem to be unable to control my emotions.

many things is easy to say, than done.

visual speaks louder than words.

I believe in evidences,

i'm 20 not 5.

certain things can't be changed.

many things can't be done.

sigh.

if I say that I like you now,

would you be with me??

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@00:46

OMG fucking god..
how many times am I suppose to go through this
once? twice? thrice?
this is the fucking 4th time!!

how naive.
how dumb.
really...

how many more?
everytime the blow is so big...
when will I collapse?
I do not know...
looking at the date,
it broke my heart even more.
life suck.

I never understand the L-word.

when I am cold and lonely, I wonder where you are.
now I stop wondering.
sigh

leave me alone.
I do not ...........you at all now.
='(

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Tuesday, October 28, 2008 @23:58

hey I miss you this much
...
too bad you ain't my baby
...

.STOP ASKING.

I swear I kill

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Monday, October 27, 2008 @18:22

public holiday,
I had a G-REAT breakfast today at Ah Teng's Bakery.
shit till my arsehole have got hole.

after this holiday,
I will be busy like, working like a cow.
projects. this is my phobia.

halloween is coming my way..
I can't wait for it.

this is not easy ..
I hope you can ..
because of love I let you ..
I do not know ..
just want to ..
and be freed ..
be happy ..

I relate with this song.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Sunday, October 26, 2008 @07:34

many hours of work.
few hours of sleep.

my eyes doesn't seem to be able to open.

shopping was GREAT.
I got a couple of stuff which I wanted since dunno which year.
more more more MORE!!

watery eyes,
i am up this early. GOD!!!!
ok. weak and whatever.
one plastic cup and I AM DOWN.
told you already, after drinking I must dance.
there's no music, no nothing.
its Ervinna's Bday!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE. ^^

yet another busy SUNDAY.
yawns~

next week.
I can't wait for next week.
someone for my to hope for, something for me to plan for.
I am looking looking looking forward to it.
^^
hurry hurry hurry come, please.
I can't take it anymore. argh!
in less than 24 hrs it will be.
I grin cos of it. don't ask me why I smile out of the blue.
cos you should know why.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Friday, October 24, 2008 @08:54

busy days...
why.
I am not sure.

haha..
I only smile at you cos you are special, and you are the only reason for me to smile.

for you I try not to pull a gloomy face,
though I know you belong to someone else.
just that few moments around each other makes my day.

been really busy with projects, many of them.
next week comes the presentation, the letter writing exercise, AS presentation.
WTF!!
I am still at the very beginning.

from your point of view, please don't hate.
cos I am not, so please don't .
if you do, I will be really upset about it.
don't make me turn to someone else, please.
=)

smile smile smile,
everyone just want that smile to tell that you are fine,
*haha*
thats so surface.
the wider the smile, the more upset one is.
the louder the laughter, just to cover the cry within.
in a daze doesn't always be thinking,
its just an escape to my world.
its blank within. nothing, empty.

certain thing will change.have already changed.

decisions, time will come.

how reluctant.but it is.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Wednesday, October 22, 2008 @15:57

speechless.I am.
numb.I think I am.
I am seriously.

a smile is all I can give. thats the best I can do for now.

weather is unpredictable,
human is even more unpredictable.
I am not blaming anyone for bad weather

everything that happened,
its all in my control.

unseen,
unbroken.
tearless sorrow.
its really hard.
to let it go.
Gbye,love.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Monday, October 20, 2008 @16:28

i've got lotsa of work to do now.
I got no time no time no time.

to be done TONIGHT!
-modeling of the car.
-floral patterns. =P hope that its nice?
-editing of interviews if I can.

I need to wake up early to go to school to finish up the car in the morning.

practically was in coma yesterday.
i just couldn't wake up for long.
headache.. was in the rain. damn!

i smell you today.
why I can?
I shouldn't be able to..
sigh.
whatever you said isn't try at all..
someone please reassure me once more.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Saturday, October 18, 2008 @14:13

working my ass off at barnone,
god damn! fuck busy..
and some people just love SHOUTING.
farking SHUTUP, before I blow my top at you.

the songs by 5series just touched my heart,
I just want to shut my ears,
completely .
*sniff*

alright, everyone gotta be hyper!
defination please.

the words, the style, GOD.
remind me. now it seems like goals are simplier?
nothing fancy.

I NEED TO DO MY MODELLING.
shit man.

little brother is whining, and its like getting on my nerve.

puppy love. where the adult world is totally like at MARS? or Jupitar?
eating ice pop. talking about the damn future,
when its here, ha! just fcuk it. really.

just hanging out with you makes me so happy.
little things make me sad, simple thing get me back on track.
its totally different.

I don't know what will happen.
I am just in love.
so in love that I don't know how.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Friday, October 17, 2008 @10:32

super tiring.
everything is pacing up.
I got no time no time no time.

don't seems to have enough sleep.
good thing is that I am in school without equipments, and I can extent it.

my cupboard is cleared.
it is like left with half, so don't say anything if I keep wearing a certain thing out.
I am so out of clothes, and L.

can't wait to go home, cos bloody mary is here.
argh!!
but I still have got so much to do, too much?!

Wonderful tonight seems like its so damn far away.
and I want to GO HOME. really.

dug out one of my hard dick.
goodness, there's a folder call, romance?
I am listening to it, ok, very romantic, but no feel.

sudden urge to want to escape.
I am watching the Japan trip with school.
and want to go on a trip with my friends again.
miss those little school kids, their school and the moment where we played catching. police and thief.

my little boy is gonna be 1 soon. BIG ONE.
gotta grab a cake from come dog's bakery.
celebration!!!
invitation list will be those with dogs?(joking)

in another half an hour to an hours time, I will be heading home,
cos I can't sit in school anymore.

the miss is so great, that I am not missing.
the love is so deep, that I am not loving.
the heart is so shattered, that I am just looking at those pieces in daze.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Wednesday, October 15, 2008 @23:54

the little puppy is turning ONE soon.. and he's a man? now..
damn gross to see him hump people..
seems like he got taste too..
mm.. wait I take back my words..
he got taste at time(note: only one.)
so far so good, he knows who's the boss, and never will he touch my girl.
=)

yet another day, without anything stupid.
tired. more to go till I collapse.
yeah!

working at barnone is more and more interested=boring.
time to learn more new things.
constantly on the move, till I finish learning everything on earth.
see me being a pimp one day and DON'T say hi.

Got some cool people,
especially those who offered to take me to the airport at the end of the year,
to get some branded stuff at really cool prices.
time to do something to my cupboard, to the point where people want to shoplift in there.

certain things I hate,
the most hated thing will be.. me myself and I.
always reflect on yourself before hating anything, since I hated so many things,
thus I conclude that I actually hate myself to the center of the earth already.

begin when there is no ending,
ending just give me the warning of not beginning.
without a beginning comes no ending.
no capital letter no fullstop/question mark
.no emotion.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@00:10

craved yours.
pen it down.
hidden right under.
hope it stays fresh for as long as possible.
till it fades, I hold on.
when its gone, I will move on.
it may seems a million pound.
and so reluctant.
I just have to.

every time I see him, I just feel this pain.
I can't help it.
in his eyes I saw the care. I am sure he knows it all.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Monday, October 13, 2008 @23:00

day 1 of school..
Learn that I've GOT written paper!!
woohoo~~ i am crazy.

nothing much, just the same old thing,
3modules, super busy..
FYP most not done, so its NEVER too late to start chiong-ing now..
im comparing to not doing at all.

I've grown.
don't be scare.
haha..
the * that hides everything.
~~ going away soon.
it just haven't hit me.
maybe it will never.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Sunday, October 12, 2008 @17:02

.ended.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Saturday, October 11, 2008 @16:03

punch you.
hate you.
leave me alone.
those days.
left me empty.
lost still am.
stay out of it.
be happy, I beg of you.
so our life can go on.
me and him.
trying hard.
you, making things worst.
so many to handle.
soon it will be us, not you.
not ok. will be fine.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Friday, October 10, 2008 @18:56

early?

and
I am disappointed.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Thursday, October 09, 2008 @20:12

my puppy is becoming a wolf!!!

red alert!

byebye to his manhood.. soon

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Tuesday, October 07, 2008 @09:32

My thumb was flatten by the tripod yesterday.
=(

I need a kiss on it to make it feel better.

had a shoot yesterday at N park. so romantic.. if its with the right girl?
the rain is dropping and we are packing.
rock the world girls!

my finger feel really swollen this morning..
-sniff-
its gonna be fine..
yao ren nai~~~

school gonna start in days time..
im wondering.
SOON??

many things happen this holiday..
funny, the only word I can use to describe.
childish is for those.
sigh.
wish everyone happiness...
=)
stop F-ing yoz~~

I love/like ice girl.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Friday, October 03, 2008 @10:20

its coming...

stop asking me about her!!!
i slap your face i tell you ah...

i am so emotional.
BLAH!

*kisses*
can't be replaced
nor a replacement

I heart my
girl
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friend
this much.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Wednesday, October 01, 2008 @19:03

work.

its really a fullstop at the end of it.
leading a happy life working my butt off,
but

I AM SICK.

going to work soon.
again.
be glad.

I am kinda pissed at some people.
friends. what kind?
total disappointment, but still life goes on.

totally spoil my night, and words are just so penetrating.
right through my heart.

things are getting a little bit complicated,
but.
WHATEVER!

i need a private nurse!!
=)

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy