Just so not willing to go to Cambodia now.. someone please ask me not to go.. be the right person..
I just want to stay.. right beside you.. to see your smile.. to hear your whine.. to make you angry.. to disturb you.. to buy you chocolate cakes.. to flood your room with balloons.. to give you surprises everyday.. to talk to you.. to go around eating..
to love you.. to protect you.. to hold you.. ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
DON'T want to go LAaaa~~~~~
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Thursday, August 30, 2007 @22:03
I love to be in love.. puppy love.. I don't know why.. but the simplest thing makes me so happy..
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
hate it when plans are ruin.. *sigh* super unhappy... duper fucked up...dammit..
don't ask why.. how come..
cause the answer you will get is I DON'T KNOW..
now i found out that the thing that trigger my anger is.. unable to fulfill my plans.. that's why I don't like to plan my moves.. cos I don't wanna be disappointed..
shall not complain anymore.. anyway I am going off soon.. gone for 2weeks or even more if I don't wanna see anyone. -The World is so filled with irritating people-
hate guys who hit girls.. fuck them upside down and downside up..
girls are created for us to love and to care.. their happiness is our joy.. their smile is our happiness.. their problems are our enemy.. their every every things are just so so so MINE..
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Wednesday, August 29, 2007 @21:33
Done playing ball.. tired..
Tomorrow will be first aid test.. wtF.. im so not prepared.. my mind is so filled with the counts .. 1 & 2 & 3 & 4... i just almost can't survive my last previous 2 days.. yucks!! so stuck in that room for 7 and a half hours listening to lecture.. *rolleyes*
I am gonna study for my test soon.. *faint* and I STINK like stinko.. *wahahA* my smell can kill all insects and pests.. and MYSELF too..
will be leaving for combodia this sunday.. and I haven't pack my bag.. *yawns* just don't have the mood to do it.. *haiz* suddenly don't feel like going.. I don't understand myself now.. anyway.. I think i will enjoy when I am there.. HOPE fully..
*sshh* should stop complaining..
-life still goes on- -my love keeps going for you-
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Tuesday, August 28, 2007 @18:36
Girls like to ask the obvious.. you are no difference.. isn't it obvious its all about you, and YOU and just You..
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Monday, August 27, 2007 @21:17
holding your hand, i really don't wanna let go.. hugging you, I really hope it can last forever.. the longer i hold you, the more I don't bear to let go.. looking at you all the time, cos I want to remember everything about you,I don't want to forget you, cos my brain seems to be deleting you from my heart.. I have to let you go so you will be happy as before.. tho' i told you that when you cry you look so cute that i am afraid that I can't let go of you, the thing is, your smile is what I would love to see everyday.. not your frown.. I hold my tears, cos I don't want to hurt you so . to be nonchalant, cos I don't want you to feel the pain in me. my smile will always hold whenever you are around, no matter how hurt I am. I will always be fine, am always fine,so deceiving.. *haha* i will never forget the LIFETIME special treatment, in Poo's whole life there will only be one Furd, and that is the cutest, prettiest, hottest,and the most loved by Poo....
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
@21:10
cry baby.. stop thinking.. stop crying..
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
@18:26
I look like an idiot getting powerpuff girls balloon.. and I look like a freak looking for that.. and I am kinda weird buying that.. I am some bonkers having the 3girls hanging above my head.. *suck suck suck*
I feel so honored carrying that around... cos it is for the you..
hugs are the thing I look for.. it is a blessing to be able to hold you in my arms, it is a need to have you in my life.. I thank god for that, and make no more other request.. every thing sink deep in my mind, and be stuck there from now on..
the way you are upset, makes me wanna hurt myself.. the way you tear, makes me wanna tell you I can do anything even if it is to vanish now.. the way you care so much, makes me wanna hold you and protect you.. the way you look at me, makes me wanna make you mine.. the way you hold my hand with your piggy finger, makes me tear..
I cried.. god!! this is really the last thing ever I would wanna to let anyone see it.. this is the first thing I want you to see it.. you should know why.. whatever I told you is from the bottom of my heart, always here to make you happy.. so please, train your heart.. *woots* always there to dry your tears, always appear where you want me to be.. always available to cover your frown with your smile..
I took every single chance to look at you.. taking down every moment of your action and store it in my memory bank..
-PLF-
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Sunday, August 26, 2007 @14:36
lets talk about Love..
mommy says to me, hey dude, there is this person on earth.. somewhere is looking for you, to spend the rest of her life with you. and you are looking for this person to spend yours with. Oh really mommy? *pupeyes* yeah, my dear invisible kid. *pat head* how do I know where is she, how she looks like, how old is she, is it her? my child, you will know it when it is her. just so naturally you will know. just trust your heart, it will bring you to your love. the love of your life. When you always want to see this person.when you will think of this person every now and then. when thinking of this person makes you smile. when all you want to do is to talk to this person. when you only want to hold this person forever. when you just want to make that person happy. when all you want to do is to see her smile. when all you do is cos of her. when all you want is her. That is the one. *blinkblink*I already found her, mommy... when you guys meet.. you can be together and live happily ever after.*smile* *hmm* not necessary mommy. Loving each other doesn't have to be together. as long as I know that she will be there for me when I need her. and that she knows that I will always be there for her when she needs me, isn't that enough? smile is what I want to see on her face.. and that is what i want to be etch in my mind.. forever. molded, never to remove.. *blinkblink* er.. that.. ok.. haha.. *pat mommy's shoulder* its ok mommy.. just remember that if you really love that person, respect her decision. if she is yours, at the end of the day she will eventually be. let your 24hrs be filled with smile and laughter, let hers be too.. *grin*
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Saturday, August 25, 2007 @21:30
Happy as always.. Happy as usual..
haha!!
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
@11:52
I have been shitting like hell since 6am... feel like fucking that hole so it can stop... I want to sleep.. *pout*
-angry- -sleepy- zach is damn fucked up that hole..
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Friday, August 24, 2007 @22:35
I had a wonderful day today.. hope you do too.. I am happy cos you are happy.. and I enjoy seeing that smile.. your smile brings the sun back..
it was cloudy and rainy in the morning, what is happening.. is someone unhappy or something.. I think there is someone who is unhappy..
the noon was hot like hell.. someone is happy again? or are you hungry? what are you craving for today? what is those things you want to eat for lunch? steak to korean bbq to lots and lots of things..
delivery on the way.. but why am i still online.. I just manage to.. anything is possible, if you have the heart to do so.. just leave it a question mark then, cos thats the most beautiful memory one can get..
planning surprises are my forte.. and i enjoy planning it, i wonder why too... if you say that.." haiz, you are just saying" .. the fact is I don't just say only, I plan with actions.. right??
I don't want to be responsible cos of responsibility.. to you, it much more than responsibility. I don't want to be a burden to you. if you know what I mean.. *haha* lotsa things I don't want to think.. cos if I think about it, I'm sure I will look back with regrets..
for you, yes YOU..*wahaha* [please click in and listen]
You ask me if I love you And I choke on my reply I'd rather hurt you honestly Than mislead you with a lie
For who am I to judge you In what you say or do I'm only just beginning To see the real you
And sometimes when we touch The honesty's too much And I have to close my eyes And hide I wanna hold you till I die Till we both break down and cry I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
Romance's an honest strategy Leaves me battling with my pride But through the insecurity Some tenderness survives I'm just another writer Still trapped within my truth A hesitant prize-fighter Still trapped within my youth
And sometimes when we touch The honesty's too much And I have to close my eyes And hide I wanna hold you till I die Till we both break down and cry I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
At times I'd like to break you And drive you to your knees At times I'd like to break through And hold you endlessly At times I understand you And I know how hard you try I've watched whil love commands you And I've watched love pass you by At times I think we're drifters Still searching for a friend A brother or a sister But then the passion flares again....
And sometimes when we touch The honesty's too much And I have to close my eyes And hide I wanna hold you till I die Till we both break down and cry I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- its daddy's birthday tomorrow.. i am home early.. what a daddy's girl..
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
@11:18
-happy person-
finally cleared everything, I hope. I treasure all of my friends alot.. and don't wish to hurt anyone.. but normally my stupid face will make people pissed.. *sweat* was wondering why..
yesterday was kinda lousy poooty.. can i say that i hate yesterday.. i think, no.. cos I am happy as always.. *haha*
basically... I went for the body checkup after 2 weeks of mental preparation.. GOSH~~ I HATE JABS.. *pout* don't hurt as much as I thought it would be.. I even dreamt about it, I am so SCARED.. am i? damn.. I am not such a baby..
and then, the doctor seems to be rushing for time.. no time to think and he poke that thing into my skin.. WTF!!! rushing to eat chicken rice I think, anyway.. thats good.. am i contradicting myself??
happy once again, cos I dont have to worry about that jab thing anymore.. whee~~ off I went to town to get my daddy his birthday cake.. looks nice and cute.. haha.. considered that I made a new friend.. so funny talking to him.. such a nice dude. will be collecting the cake on Saturday cos that's the day.. haven't get him any present yet.. he is such a FUSSY person so to say.. this don't want that don't want.. WTH.. the world is so limited with things.. what to get? give him my kiss then and my I LOVE YOU.. isn't that enough? anyway.. i will try getting him something.. on my plan list -wallet (those damn flat ones, flat like paper.. can't find at all..sigh) -Dr.Martin Shoes ( sounds expensive... cos of the word, Dr. *lame*) -Collar Shirt (he will make a fuss about the quality.. troublesome) -Tee shirt ( he will have reasoning for the manufactoring) -nothing (such a good thing.. best on the list.. woots)
met up with furd for lunch.. omg! look at that.. its still there.. *wahaha* alright alright.. i shall stop it.. Got her two cakes.. chocolate.. yucks to me.. yummy to her.. and a dark chocolate stick.. making up to her.. damn.. cos I can't stop myself from talking about THAT.. no, i gotta stop.. okok.. i will i will.. *haha* can I say this is the happiest hour of the whole day?? hope it is too to you, gloomy furd.. Cheer up man!!! maybe I can't cheer you up, think those chocolate did, right??
back home to play DTXmania .. to calm myself.. I think..
went down to Raffles X-change.. met up with the gang.. let me call them.. the PARTY GANG!!! wootie tootie..such nice name..
i am damn stress, I don't know why.. just stress.. GODDIE Doddie.. I am sorry that make everyone unhappy.. one way or another.. you guys are very important to me.. like I say.. tho' I may sound unserious, but I am serious.. REALLY.. your tears is so important to me.. everyones are.. but I will be lost to see tears.. paralyse I think.. shock.. blur.. whatever.. I love my darling so much.. *hugshugshugs* I just wanna say thank you so much for being there for me.. i seriously think that, if that can make them happier, just let them do it.. BUT~~ I am so touch when you stnad before me and "protecting me" er.. sounds damn mushy.. but.. THANKiew!!!!!! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I am a person who don't like to explain myself ... as long as I know that I have no regrets, its enough... the world can say anything about me, I don't really care.. can put all the blame onto me.. I don't care too.. as long as my friends understand.. friends you should know who are you ..
people once say that, why don't you tell them.. why don't you explain properly.. why want them to misunderstood you.. you always letting people say what you have done wrong.. are you trying to protect someone? why wanna keep everything to yourself? why wanna take all the blame to yourself? why smile when you are being scolded and not say a word?
i can only say.. that's me.. nothing more.. I am tired of explaining.. I am tired of repeating myself.. I am tired of accounting to it.. I won't change for the world.. I won't change to suit it..
I am happy being like this I am who I am.. am i right or wrong.. the fact is I don't care..
-trust is what i hold up to- zach
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Wednesday, August 22, 2007 @23:22
To You...
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Love You I Love You I Love You I Love You I Love You I Love You I Love You I Love You I Love You Zach
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
@20:32
Love is so complicated
can someone teach me why are you so complicated all I want to do is to love you. to love you the way you want me to i don't care what will the future be trying so hard to ask myself to stop this this is not gonna happen but why am i falling deeper and deeper can you just think that it is you not others hate it when people misunderstand everything I can't make it clear cos I can't clearing things are not of any help it will cos more trouble for everyone these days I learn that certain things are better to be the way it is the way it is meant to be but will I regret I hope ... i wont ... don't know what i am doing.. don't know what I want.. maybe you are what I want.. what a joke.. wahaha... okok, take it as a joke.. laugh and forget what I say..
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
@17:23
i was wondering....
.... why is there such a thing call heart break.... .... what is love.... .... who am i....
do you cry as much as you laugh.... I don't.
to be honest, I am emo. I am weak. I am not that happy.
ask me why i use purple. I don't know why i use purple. I don't really like purple, but I am ok with it. purple is said to be gay color, why is it gay color. I have no idea, maybe it makes one gayie. i am starting to crap. but why do i crap that much. I really don't want to be that lame. but I can't help it. my legs are working fine.
irritating.. I am irritating at times, most of the time. you ask me can you stop being so irritating.. i will say.... cannot. you roll your eyes, and I smile to myself silently. you ignore me, and my heart is clapping its hands. so what is it. why am i like that. maybe i am bored.
why do i feel bored, i always ask myself. sian has been sticking my my mouth often. cos I have nothing to do.. maybe.
maybe.. i am becoming more and more uncertain. why is this so. maybe cos I am not sure who I am.. see! maybe again.. *shakehead*
my world is so filled with grey these days.. is it cos its kinda like the rainy season or something. human love to blame.. god dammit.. and I am doing so.. thinking that I am more than human.. but I am actually human.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- guess what that day ,my mom told me..
hey look sweetheart, you know what? you are such a wonderful kid. no one know you exist. i was going, yeah.. coool mom.. but why ? my mom was smiling to me and saying, cos you are such a wonderful kid that mom want you all to myself, so I make you invisible.. really, mom?! i was super duper farking excited when i heard it.. why didnt you tell me earlier? look, chap.. you cannot tell anyone about it, cos if you do, they will see you.. I was thinking to myself, holy cow, how did she know that i was planning to tell my best friend about that.. alright mom, a little disappointed.. but i gotta live with it. I gotta be stronger cos I am invisible.. *grin*
someone called.. it's my best friend.. hey dude, wanna go for a game? alright.. BYE mom.. thanks for telling me that I am invisible..
met up with my bestie.. hey .. guess what.. my mom told me a secret today man!! what is it dude.. nice shirt you are wearing btw.. thanks!! I don't know whether to tell you.. but its a secret you know.. alright, dont tell me then.. if not your mom will be unhappy.. I guess so..
we went for a ball game.. and know what.. everyone calls me by my name when we arrive.. god!! i have so much friend.. is it cos I am invisible, thats why?? *wide grin*
its so cool to be invisible... -zach is invisible,btw- -sshh.. its a secret-
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Monday, August 20, 2007 @18:30
in a delimma, thinking of things that are unclear...
who can make it clear?
I'm lost... I'm so lost... I don't know what to do... who can teach me how... who can guide me through...
can I hold your hand and walk the rest of my life in peace.. can I said that I love you every night with a smile on... can I plan surprises for special occasion like this... can I tell the world that I need you... can I tell my friends about you... can I be sweet just for you... can I be nice just to you... can I be a romantic prince to you... can I sing love songs to you... can I can I can I?
missing so much of you... wanting so much of you... thinking of you everyday...
if you are the one selling DC donuts, I will be the one Q-ing for it... if you are the one planting trees by the road side, I will be the one blocking the whole street... if you are the one singing, I will be the one standing outside listening... if you are the gloomy kid, I will be that thing that cheer you up...
I can do anything in this world to make you mine... I can do anything on earth to make you feel special... I will do all things to make you know that you are important...
in the rain I see your smile... up above the sky, I hear your laughter... behind those doors, I sense your presence... from time to time, I'm thinking of you... How I want to spend my everyday with you... My everynight with you... all my life like this...
I want to be the candy that sweeten up your days... I want to be the sun that dry your tears... I want to be your personal umbrella that blocks all rain and shine... I want to warmth you with my burning passion... I want to hold you through the night... I want to sky the kite of dreams with you... I want to take you wherever I go... I want to share your everything... I want no hiding from you to me... I want to see the true you... I want to show you what I can do for the one ... I like, I want, I love...
-for you may be the one- -to me you are the one-
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Saturday, August 18, 2007 @06:51
...to the one I said I love...
i submerge myself in those smoke and drink. i wanna shout out loud for where you maybe. just to let you hear my heart missing the one it should be. ringing the bell of love it is. do you ever heard it like I did.
you took my heart away that day. with that lovely smile of yours till this day. i miss your whine your kiss your ~wei~ your bye your hey your everyday.
I wish to hold your hand one day. I want to call you MY DEAR with gay. to watch the sunrise everyday. to count the stars till I end my day. with you in my arms I gladly dream. to dream of you my princess dear, in those dreams I built our home. out I bring those dreams to real.
my fantasy, my hope, my love, with you I live the world of our own. with faith I proudly say, "I Love You till no end of day".
would you trust yourself in me, would you let me hold on to your precious heart. I just want to hear you say, a simple "I Do", makes my day.
I love you with all my heart my soul. You will be the girl of my life. the one I never will let go tho' you might ask me to. the one I always surprise cos I love you so.
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-waiting patiently- -patiently I waited- -will still wait- ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- a song for you
So far away on a cold lonely night If I could only hear your voice then I'd be alright Tell me that you love me, tell me that you care I just want to hear your voice come floating through the air
Telephone, too lonely Tell me you're alright I just want to feel you near when I lay down tonight
I'd give anything to see your face Just to share the silence of your eyes Your love is something no one can replace While I'm gone I don't want you to cry Please don't cry...
Tell me that you love me Tell me you're okay Telephone, too lonely It sounds so far away Tell me that you need me, tell me its alright I just want to hear your voice when I lay down tonight
I'd give anything to taste your kiss Just to feel your body touching mine It hurts me to bewarn you like this So tell me that you love me one more time.. One more time
Tell me that you love me Tell me you're alone I just want to hear your voice I'm so far from home Tell me that you love me, tell me that you care I just want to hear your voice come floating through the air
Oh tell me that you love me, tell me that you care I just want to hear your voice come floating through the air Telephone, too lonely Tell me you're alright I just want to feel you near when I lay down tonight
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Friday, August 17, 2007 @11:38
WOOTS~~
EVOLUTIONs PRoduction rox!!!
we won BEST PICTURE award...
well done EVO . I think we gotta thank lots people for this..
all our casts.. you guys did a wonderful job here.
all those people we made friends with on the rocky way to the finish point.
I guess our families, tho' I believe they all nag like hell when the process seems so
tough for us.. BUT..
WE HAVE DONE A GREAT JOB!!!
I believe EVO will always remember what Jeanine said to us.. this will keep us moving and
motivated.. right guys??
CHEERS!!
evo stands strong forever as our next project comes our way..
every one of our DDM mates did really well!!!
3 cheers!!!! way to go people..
when the going gets tough, the tough gets going..
-happyhappyhappy-
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Wednesday, August 15, 2007 @12:33
Have been stuck in school from 0800 to 2000 every single day for the week... how am i suppose to survive this? *hmm* gotta think hard.. really hard.
doing our film at SP-SMIT-T2056.. tomorrow is the day.. everything will be over, new ones will be coming.. GOD DAMMIT!!! hope it goes well.. jeanine said to us that we are the most horrendous group ever in her whole teaching life.. -sniff- this mean so much to us.. *sigh* whats more to say.. she sounds so disappointed, I just hope that, ours will be one of the good ones tomorrow.. cos we spend lotsa time and effort in it..something that she might have missed out..
as for life.. I am enjoying it to the fullest! with all my friends by my side and stuff, there nothing more I will wanna ask for.. I am not a greedy person, btw.. *wahaha*
oh yea.. I am a vegetarian now, thinking that its cool to be one, so I am sticking to vegetables and beans.. its alright, just that my my bowel movement is slightly faster now.. *muahaha* anyone envy this? I doubt so.. just ignore what I have just said.
Movie on that day, which i can't remember which day..watch SECRET .. its OK! to most people.. so I will say that its ok. storyline is quite a twistie, but I am not too pleased with the camera movements and the composition of everything. its for leisure, so it nice.
went out yesterday, with Furddy.. wahaha.. "OMG! LOok at that!!" "what happen to your hair?" oops~~ I promise to be to you, right? *hmm* -okok- alright I shall be nice.. or should I say "Special" treatment.. I know you are happy yesterday!! stop looking so gloomy!!!
I am so desperate to sleep now.. omg!! how I wish its a weekend this morning.. *roll eyes* its not!! so I am kinda stuck in school infront of this lappy of mine and the apple computer.. -sick-
I am going for a movie later.. its LOUIS KOO's show eh.. and I am the last to watch it.. WTF.. see how busy I am..
I shall not complain about my so MEANINGFUL life.. I love it this much.. how much?? that much... -haha-
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Sunday, August 12, 2007 @22:57
to furd only,
let me be your bank, deposit all your sorrows and tears and worries and unhappiness to me... you can only withdraw smiles and laughter and happiness... that's POO's say!! and POO's rule!!!
please remember that you dont need a reason to meet me up, cos you don't need a reason to want company.
-smile-
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
@09:22
God dammit!!
I think I was drunk ONCE again yesterday, at cafe iguana. why always that place, and the same person. hmm~~ i guess they are the people that I trust myself with. cos they are my bestest Bud!! or is it BUTT?? *wahaha*
to my darling Jit: my dear, looking at you like this hurt my heart. I wanna hold and hug you to tell you that I really care. I really don't know what's wrong. But, I believe that you are really unhappy. Doing such things need lotsa courage. I won't say much, won't ask you to stop or anything, cos I respect what you are doing. Being hurt so bad inside. I just want you to know that you still have me. Always here for you. There are lot of other people who are so worried for you. We love you for who you are, like i say. I need you so bad, I really can't afford to have someday without you. thinking that you are just hurting yourself, have you thought of me, the others? how are we gonna live without you by our side? said that I am your brother, I am your darling, I wonder have you thought of how I feel when you are doing it? I will tell you how I feel... every one you did, cos so much pain in my heart. I wanted so bad to ask you to stop it, stop doing it to yourself, please do it on me! I wanted so bad to take all your sorrows and pain. I want to hear your laughter again, that is what I always pray for, something to be with you all your life. my shoulders are for you, just like yours are for me. you are so needed. Love you always, darling! -cry-
your darling.
In life there are lotsa ups and downs, it is to train you to be stronger. Tears and sorrows make one grow to be stronger. as years go by, one tend to cry less. grown.. looking at newborn, they cry when they are hungry, they cry when they want to eat, they cry when they want a hug... looking at toddler, they cry when they want a toy, they cry when they need attention, they cry when they want to sleep... looking at children, they cry when they don't want to eat vege, they cry when they want to play instead of sleep, they cry when they are snatching toys.. looking at schooling kids, they cry when they did badly for exams, they cry when they are scolded teachers, they cry when they have to repeat their writing..
looking at myself, am I doing all those things? do I still cry over such things? hey peeps, ask yourselves that... I can tell you that I don't. cos, I know that crying don't get you anywhere when such things happen. I no longer can cry when I want to eat, I no longer can cry when I want to poo, I no longer can cry when I want to sleep, I no longer can cry when I want a huggie... all these things have to worked for. have to be achieved. one thing I am sure about is, emotionally, I am still a newborn. I cry for love, I cry to be loved, I cry when I am hurt in love .. everyone does isnt it? that's human. the last time I cry is cos, of her. the one I loved. the one I needed. the one I wanted.
I always cry in silence.. I wanted so bad to cry out loud, but I don't wanna hurt anyone.. those who care for me. those who love me. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.. my idiots!!!! my tears are for the ones I love.. my tears are for the ones I need.. my tears are for all of you guys out there.. you should know yourselves, you should know that you are wanted and needed by me. SO important that I can't live my stupid sucky life without. so if you ever want to leave me here in this fucking world.. please, take me along with you, don't throw me here ALONE. get it??
to all of you people. naming is not my style. so is YOU LA!
-ZZ-
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Wednesday, August 08, 2007 @09:07
Blessed with you for a year.. In Love with you till this day.. You are the joy of my life.. You are the oxygen that keeps me going.. My heart pump the love for you endlessly.. I will love you till the clock stops ticking I will love you till the sun stops rising I will love you till the stars stop twinkling I will love you till the tress are no longer green I will love you till the oceans dry up I will love you till all the clouds from above falls I will love you till ... ... ... ... I don't know when that will be... I don't want to know when that will be... cos that day, never exist... I am not the best in the world but you are the best in the world to me I am not all you have but you are all I have I am not what you wanted but you are what I wanted I am not that special one but you are that special one to me I am not perfect but you are perfect to me I am not a romantic person you are my romance I am not a sweet talker you are my candy I am not a who I am you make me who I am I am not perfect you make me so I have holes in me you came into my life and fill those holes till the next year, I will still tell you the same thing, cos that is what I always wanted to tell you, the never changing truth, the ever lasting love, all I want to say is.... I Love You, my Dear. if the sky is ever to fall on you, I will be there to hold it for you. if the going gets to tough, I will be there to guide you. if the night is full of nightmares, I will be there to watch over you. if someone were to break your heart, I will be there to heal you. you are the love of my life, never will I leave you nor neglect you. never will I bully you just tease you. I will bring smiles to your life. never to make you cry. laughter is what I am giving to replace your tears leave all the tears to me. I handle your heart with care, rest assure her to me. stay in love with me, sweetheart.
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Tuesday, August 07, 2007 @22:02
I hate liar.. to the core.. If you lie to me, it will be hard for me to trust you.. so please don't lie to me..
I love you cos.. you are who you are.. I love you cos.. I trust you.. I love you cos.. you have strong personality.. I love you cos.. I DO..
zach
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Monday, August 06, 2007 @10:02
I am so back in HOng Kong.. lotsa things to face..
sick.. dammit.. always sick at this hour.. my neck ache like fuck.. my head pain like as if someone is slamming it against the wall.. all I want to do is sleep.. but.. I CAN"T..
so tired of studying.. *haha* one more week!!!! its gonna end.. soon.. my misery.. my pain..
I shall stop complaining and do my work.. animation .. *sweat*
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Thursday, August 02, 2007 @23:34
IN HONGKONG!!!!
Enjoying my life here.. i want to stay here forever!!!
shopping day tomorrow.. i want to buy the whole of hong kong.. hee
see you guys soon..
missing you people!!!!
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
@07:16
I am off toHongKong
Finally done with my mrtl.. which is damn sucky.. anyway.. I want to sleep.. my eyes can't take it.. brain dead.. FUck is all I can think of now.. dammit..
I will be missing YOU..
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
♥` PROFILE
name: Zachery
age: 19/4yrs
Cute; Charming; Cheeky; Confident; Clever
thats crap.. but its me*grin*
