Friday, June 29, 2007 @02:04
Unhappy..
I do care..
I do love..
I do like..
I do want..
I do need..
I do crave..
I do long..
I do I do..
I am so unhappy..
I am so down..
what can I do now..
what can I say now..
why are you so pissed..
why are you so unhappy..
my fault to get back to you so late..
cos i was locked out..
anyway.. you don't care..
so hurt to see you sad..
even more hurt when you said that to me..
i just want to care..
but seems like my care and concern is making you frustrated..
my love is making you annoyed..
everything is making you so unhappy..
I really don't know what is wrong now..
can anyone just tell me..
my tears can seriously cos a flood..
i'm even deeper than the well..
I know i know..
I am nobody..
I am just some busybody out on this earth..
I am just born to irritate you..
I am just a passer-by..
I am just not important..
I am just a someone..
whom you are just so not ********** in..
I shouldn't ask so much..
that makes you frustrated..
I don't ask so much..
that makes you think I don't care..
I am just so sorry to give all this shit upon you..
talking to me is so stressful..
talking to me is so frustrating..
talking to me makes you angry makes you pissed..
all I want to do is to love you..
is that so difficult?
-lost-
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Saturday, June 23, 2007 @09:06
Tired!!!
had a good night ..
no filming today..
woohoo!!!!
might be meeting the girls in the morning..
not much on schedule today..
just my day..
right.. I need bra..
NO BRA..
have been looking for locations and casts for the pass few dayss..
walking around..
and I sweat like crazy..
I stink the whole town.. and sunset way yesterday..
*oops* sorry..
I sweat damn easily..
I had a great time with EVOLUTIONs yesterday..
looking for location was fun..
we talked about stuff related to sleeping..
cos we saw someone sleeping in a train and we laugh like crazy..
*slaphead* damn.. we are so EVIL..
but most of the joke is about ourselves..
so no worries..
Pisces ROCKS thought we have lotsa bad habit when sleeping
I am so SHY now
nothing much..
just alittle down in luck I guess..
cheers for the GREAT WEEK..
to my princess..
I want to say that I seriously hope that we had more time together..
not enough time.. *pout*
didn't talk much yesterday.. sigh
thank you for being so understanding..
er.. wahaha..
sleep more naughty girl..
always not listening..
*whackhead* little panda..
aw.. you are so cute..
so blessed to have you..
love your whine so much..
so please whine more..
that makes me more energetic..
wahaha..
okok.. i may sound kinda sick ..
but I am serious..
haiz.. normal human just don't understand..
she has this thing in her whine.. that is SO FUCKING nice..
I am starting to miss her *laugh+byebye*..
or rather.. her byebye.. cos.. its just heaven..
*drooling*
alot of things I am missing..
love you so much Girlfriend..
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Thursday, June 21, 2007 @10:05
Ok..
now the whole EVOLUTION PRODUCTION CREW will be Freaking busy..
dammit..
tho' the deadline is extented..
but we still have few mountains of things to complete..
Spinning head..
cos I can't get my casts..
those aunty and uncle..
and MY GRANDPA!!!!!
GOSH~~~
time to go down to market to look for those..
then to old folks home ..
nah~~ just kidding..
i'm so buried in paper work..
so tired of making calls to those casts..
but I love pre-production stage..
woots!!!
so busy so nice
CHEERS to EVOLUTION PRODUCTION CREWS!!!!
LOVE YOU GUYS TO BITS!!!!!!
WE're a GREAT TEAM!!!!
all the way GUYS...
off I go to school..
shooting at Henderson Sec today..
MILLION THANKS TO THE SCHOOL...
they are just amazingly NICE
Love you so much..
know who i am talking about??
don't doubt cos I am talking about you..
the one I called yesterday..
*hee*
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Tuesday, June 19, 2007 @08:49
Lets talk about BEING LATE
not used to being late now, unless due to some reasons.
I don't see a reason to be late..
Hiroshima MAma taught me not to be late, cos its an shame to be late.
*hmm* I think that SInagporean should know this too, cos they are ALWAYS late.
*sigh* I wonder what is their mentality.
someone called me and I texted back.
its so weird, she says that she missed me..
what the hell is this??
*hmm* I sense something not too right about this, all I can do is laugh at it.
if I like and love you,
I will automatically message and call you,
damn..
its nice to have someone to care and miss me, but
I don't know man..
not my cup of tea..
wahaaa...
lose () in ()
lose () in ()
damn ()
fuck ()
hate().. () for someone ..
where am () in your (), I really () that I am just a ().
so I have decided to () go..
not () for anything ()..
cos its a () thing , dumb ()
new () new () new () new () new everything
SMILE AGAIN SMILE AGAIN
going () now..
sounds kinda sick.. but yes..
am I going ().. or am I going ()
that I don't know
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Monday, June 18, 2007 @21:38
for heaven sake..
I so not used to the culture in singapore..
singaporeans need some proper education about lotsa stuff..
*haiz*
I messaged..
got a reply..
chatted on msn..
WOLS..
I called..
picked up..
hanged up..
never answer anymore..
What the FUck..
I am so damn tired these days..
but i have no time to sleep..
I need to complete lots of stuff by this week..
my VPT.. damn!!!
plus Hiroshima trip stuff..
what a headache..
still in holiday mood..
my bain..
my heart..
really don't believe i got the courage to message.. then called..
woots~~
*smile*
I asked ()
are you my ()
I questioned about (), what am I suppose to ()..
how am i suppose to (), should I be () or ()..
what the () is this all about..
a ()() means a ()()..
hate this ()..
DAMMIT is all I can say..
(), () and lotsa different ()..
i really wonder when you are () ..
() is not right..
() you are that.. () myself for that..
off to bed..
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Sunday, June 17, 2007 @13:36
| You Can Make 63% of Your Crushes Fall in Love With You |
Your seduction skills are practically legendary. You know how to close the deal.
Just don't let someone you're really into get the better of you!
As long as you keep up your end of the flirting game, you'll get the prize at the end. |
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
@13:30
| Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male |
Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve |
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Friday, June 08, 2007 @18:12
Smile cos I have to..
I smile with my hands tightly curl up..
I smile with frowns..
I smile with weary eyes..
I smile with a cold heart..
I hide everything..
yes I do..
Only the night knows it all..
tears flow at night..
the sun dry it all..
it brings smile so that no one see that unhappy part..
living in such fake smile..
hiding the truth behind curtains of lies..
yes indeed..
I am used to keeping things to myself..
I am not used to having others to worry for me..
I am used to solving things myself..
but I don't like to keep things to myself..
just that I have no choice..
why add burden to the one you love..
songs speaks my heart..
the weather too..
it is raining now.. listening to a sad song.. blogging an emo post, on a day of departure..
always holding onto hopes..
am i being naive?
have you been heart broken before?
frowns; heart ache..
just like that..
it hurts so much that only you know..
right?
but.. in between that..
you will smile..
cos of that someone..
yes.. that special someone bring that smile to you..
it is indeed you.
I am smiling ain't me..
with my fist tightly closed..
I am smiling ain't me..
shivering..
I am smiling ain't me..
smiling with a frown right above..
I am smiling ain't me..
I wonder if I am able to rise my head after I look down for a sec..
I am smiling ain't me..
a laugh will be good to ease my heart..
I wonder if I let those tears go..
will I be able to keep it back when I wanted to..
I wonder if I cry..
can it be silence..
I wonder if I collapse..
will it be better..
Crying out is good to relax those muscles..
Crying out is to have a clearer mind..
Crying out is to have a feel of being back to young..
Crying out is to let those emotion flows..
Crying out is to allow myself to know how much you meant to me..
so many reasons to cry..
One reason to NOT cry.. that is that I have to be strong for the one I love..
so much tears in me huh?
never running out of tears..
just like never running out of love for you..
just like never running out of the heart to miss you..
to be frank..
I am not in the mood..
what a day to depart..
with that rain.. with those songs in my PSP.. with those worries in my heart.. with an empty mind..
hate to act happy infront of people..
but I have no other choice..
keeping the true feeling to myself is the best solution and the only solution..
I might be smiling but.. think.. am I really smiling..
I might be joking but.. think.. am I actually trying to hide something..
I might be light hearted but .. think.. am I really carefree..
I might be laughing but .. think.. am I crying like hell inside..
I might be saying anything so .. think.. am I lost..
-off i go with this mood-
-dammit-
-fuck it-
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
@02:33
I just somehow finish packing..
damn..
Not in the fucking mood now..
I don't know what I want at this very moment of the day..
*bigSigh*
going off to Japan soon..
as in the next day..
not very excited about it..
just normal..
I still have lotsa things that haven't been done..
how to leave like that?
*haiz*
weirdos are everywhere..
I had one today..
kinda weird.. i mean that person..
saying those really funny things to me..
that set my pea brain thinking, what the hell you want pal.
hey peeps..
I already found the one I love and I won't fall for another. So, it would be GREAT if it is just pure friendship.
zachy.
Was sitting in macs at forum with Su and Wei..
then this Eurasian was staring at Su, saying HI and everything..
dammit, he wanted to er.. you know..
are they that desperate?
fuck them all man!!!
thinking that she is some kinda cheapo?
*wahaha* you guys think too highly of yourself..
anyways.. just so funny..
why are those people making town so like Geylang/redlight area?
*shakehead*
saying is easy.. doing it hard..
ask me to enjoy, when you know I can't cos my brain is so occupied with so many things.
ask me to be happy,when I am so troubled.
I told you guys that I will try.. and I hope I really do try..
certain things just is so important to me that I can't seem to not bother..
someone is just so important to me that I can't don't care..
lesson at 0900..
i have to stay back to do my project
but i can't seem to be able to sleep now..
how come?
my mind is empty..
but just seems to be so filled with things..
what are those things..
its in the sub conscious mind..
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Wednesday, June 06, 2007 @15:20
Dead...
is it just a word?
or is it not that simple?
Alife...
is it really alife?
or it is not that real?
Time...
is it the 24 hours?
or is it more than that?
Day...
is it just passing time?
or is it more than just passing time?
Night...
is it just dreams?
or it is reality?
Hope...
is it real?
or is it unreal?
Fantasy...
is it fairytale?
or it is a romantic version of reality?
Stories...
is it part and puzzle of life?
or is it a made up?
Reasons...
is it the truth?
or it is just lies?
Lost...
on a long road way?
or is it nowhere?
Words...
is it just letters?
or is it feelings?
Love...
is so simple yet hard to maintain..
is so beautiful that it is so hard to belief..
is so colourful that I can never live in black and white..
is just 4letters meant more than anything..
is so real that it seems like a fantasy..
is what makes my 24 hours a day..
is what makes those words my feelings..
is what makes stories part of my life..
is what makes someone so special to me..
am i caring too much ?
am i asking too much ?
am i wanting too much ?
am i hoping too much ?
am i question too much ?
am i bothering too much ?
am i loving too much ?
am i a bastard ? am i a jerk ?
damn.. I can't help but care and love.. I really can't control that part of me..
how much I want not to give the wrong signal.. but I am not giving off any..
the one I wanted to feel the signal.. I really wonder can she feels it..
-my questioning is such a pressure?-
-its time to reflect-
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Tuesday, June 05, 2007 @21:07
I'm missing my little princess so much..
damn..
school was alright.
just that I'm not really in the mood to do anything.
cooped in my world of PSP.
I want to be in her world now.
How i want that the fantasy, my reality to be in my hand.
The way I want it to be
The way I plan it to be
The way I made it to be
The way it had been.
been two days since we talked..
and I'm missing her like my heart had gone for a vacation.
I'm missing her like the green grass missing the sun in winter.
Missing her so much.
I can't live my life without her in my mind
just like the sky cannot be without the clouds
just like the moon has to be surrounded by those stars.
just like the pond has to be filled with water.
just like life should be filled with laughter.
and as for me....
just like me with her.
she is my Beloved princess..
my sun, my moon, my laughter, my pond.. my everything.
I want to fill her with my clouds of colours
I want to fill her with water of joy
I want to fill her with stars of happiness
I want to fill her with my love.. my care..
loving her unselfishly is the only thing I do.
off to study for test..
I'm tanned..
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
Sunday, June 03, 2007 @17:29
Such sweet shot..
this is how I wanted it to be..
*smile*
Something sweet on a Sunday evening.
I'm doing my animation, and I just started, what a joke.
No sleep tonight for sure, unless I finish.
Dammit, am I just dreaming??
Went back to school for HITP meeting today,
did some actions for the songs,
discuss about stuff.
That's about it.
I still need to get
Dried mangoes, Merlion chocolate, Pork floss, vacuum packed bbq pork for the host.
I have no time to shop!!!!
Deadlines for stuff
-Animation[monday]
-CFM test [ Thursday]
-MLP assignment [friday]
Personal stuff
-Fabulous tanning saloon [tuesday & friday]
-Hair saloon [hair trim+buy wax]
-pack my stuff for HITP
-Download music into my memory card
-Download game into my memory card
-shit as much as possible [im just joking *teehee*]
I remember You [Yui -- English translated]
The wind on my face is so cold.
But it reminds me of the sky, when we were together.
I can still see the ocean from my house.
I'm looking and waiting for you here.
The days have changed and gone by,
But our summer is still there, in my surfboard
I remember the sun then, like it was yesterday
Ne, I can still hear your voice.
You said to me "I'm not going to cry,"
We waved each other goodbye silently.
We didn't say any words; our habds did that for us.
You melted into the sunset, but I remember You.
Every time I hold your old rusty guitar,
I hear our song tuging at my heart.
The days seem so cloudy now,
Passing by one after the other.
But I remember thinking;
"I know we're living for someone."
Yeah, the sun told that to me.
Ne, I can still hear you.
*so that's what I'm memorizing about and singing all day.. wahaha.. how loving
these words are.*
Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy
