me and my teddy have a secret.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006 @19:33

one message can get everything flowing
Initiative is what is needed
Memories are what i'm looking for
Connected in someway
In the same life sux way
experiencing the same thing
In different dimension with different people
know your sorrow know your pain
feel the heartache feel the loneliness
You're just so weak and fragile. I can't control but want to protect.
How can i help?
How can i share my experience?
How can we talk about this?
It's so wrong to tell you
so not right
Maybe that's you
and this is me
No need to change
Not necessary
I'll take you as my best friend tho'
Just those whom i share my hapiness with
Just don't wish to make you feel sad
Just don't want to add my sorrow to yours
I can handle it and I think you can too
Miss you alot; Love you even more
Hope that i don't see those emo post of yours anymore. can't tag you cos you don't know i know your blog. Just like you don't know mine.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Monday, October 30, 2006 @15:38

The soul of man is like to water;
From Heaven it cometh
To Heaven it riseth
And then returneth to earth,
Forever alternating.
.GOETHE.
*********************************************************************
Life is never fair; why are you talking about fairness when it doesn't even exist. Isn't that very contradicting? Liar is never tolerated. Lies never truth. Why is there so much human wanna hide? Really don't know. CAn't human just be truthful? Hate to have to guess. Hate to have to doubt. Maybe the upcoming designer's brand will be called DOUBT.
DDM1A 23 are just so united when it comes to rushing assignment and skipping lesson. Woots~ rox guys.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@09:24

There is someone special for everyone. And you are the one that is so special to me. the first time we met, My mind tells me "i don't know you" but my heart long knows you.
Time flies and the more special you get. People say that absence make your heart grow fonder. it makes no difference to me. I'll never get enough of you tho' we meet everyday.
I just can't hide
just don't have to
Just can't stop it
so continue with it
I just can't resist it
just don't need to
Since it hurt to stop
why stop it?
Since life can be so miserable not to think
why not contiune?
Since it become so pointless to live without you
why still insist on living alone?
.feels so kid to have icecream on my nose.
.feels so sweet to have candy in my mouth.
.feels so good to have you in my arm.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Sunday, October 29, 2006 @11:51

Rushing maya. Gosh so much to do. texturing and lighting. Can't believe it. How i wish it can be my real room. I love it so much. So ideal for comfort and a peaceful sleep.
New stock for my book shelf. The Piano Teacher --> Elfriede Jelinek
Only Love is REal--> Dr. Brian WEISS
Life is just the same. So filled with love and hope.
Days are just the same. So full of shit
Nights are just the same. So overwhelmed by those dreams
My room is just the same. SO full of junk.
My brian is just so empty
My heart just so full of wishes and dreams
in dreamland dreaming of YOU

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Saturday, October 28, 2006 @23:55

Icecream can bring joy
I just love ice cream
I just feels happy when eating it

Happy and contented with everything
Just love the way it is now
Don't want to change anything

My hair is my life back in secondary4
now my hair is my wife

Do i really have so many looks on my one idiot face?
cheeky ==> too much chicky meal
cute ==> just so born with it
what face ==> just my default setting
dunno face ==> so common

I will give you a soft stare next time. I promise.
but please don't be captivated by that.
Not for sales, wahaha.

I eat icecream like a kid
what the hell!!
I act like a kid
can't help it
I do like a kid
just so me
I play like a kid
isn't that normal
I work and think like my age

I love to look into your eyes
msparanoid(dundun)

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Friday, October 27, 2006 @12:57

Woohoo~~ Friday once again. Ended school, current time 1251hrs.
Gonna rot till it's time to go. Doing some interesting thing, which is reading.
Deadlines are nearing. Gosh~ can i pray for 48 hrs/day till tuesday?? I will say please.. *puppyeyes*

this kiwi is just next to me and he is irritating. Wahaha.. asking me about dumbdumb's location. He is saying that CSCC talentine is cancelled!! yay!! *soevil of me* but still, Woohoo!! 3 cheers!!

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Wednesday, October 25, 2006 @17:03

test test test...
changing url. wahaha... soon changing myself.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@10:50

souless self

loneliness
staring into blank space and starts to think
thinking about what is happening
thinking about what is wrong

thought to myself
what can i do
what can be done

knowing that i'm a noob to this
knowing that i really don't know what's wrong
i can only question
hoping that you will say

sensitive to certain things
insensitive to this
maybe i'm wrong
maybe you're right

i don't know what i want
i don't know what i'm doing
maybe is i don't want to know
knowing more means more pain more tears

longing that one day, that fateful day that you will understand
tears can keep me company
heartache can be with me
blankness can stay by my side

reaching out to uncertainty
for something that won't happen.
hoping for a hopeless hope
dreaming for a sceneless dream
listening to my heart is a mistake
knowing how it feels is a pain

nothing much to say now
don't want to say anything now
how am i suppose to face you
how can suppress it

teach me, show me, tell me

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@03:13

~~lost in this life of mine~~

simple yet so complicated
easy to say so hard to fulfill

someone please pull me out, drowning in my own shit.
can't help but think.
can't confide in anyone, but me myself and I.
Weighing myself down.

*******
Girl you know I miss you soI didn't know you had to goYou've had enough of our distance babyBefore I had the chance to sayI'm staying with youFor the rest of my lifeDon't keep telling me these wordsYou don't know how much it hurtsAnd I'll promise you eternityIf you promise me your stayBut now it's too lateI'm no longer the man that I wasI will go on without herLike a fool who's too sureI'm like a bird who's lost her wingA fire without its flameI don't know how to be strongWhen my love has to move onI am a song without a soulNow that she's goneWhat's left of us is this songDon't keep telling me these words Oh noYou don't know how much it hurtsAnd I'll promise you eternityIf you promise me your stayBut now it's too lateI'm no longer the man that I wasI will go on without herLike a fool who's too sureI'm like a bird who's lost her wingA fire without its flameI don't know how to be strongWhen my love has to move onI am a song without a soulNow that she's goneWhat's left of us is this songOh yes I know I don't knowBaby I am know I'm a foolAnd I will go on without herLike a fool who's too sureI'm like a bird who's lost her wingA fire without its flameI don't know how to be strongWhen my love has to move onI am a song without a soulNow that she's goneWhat's left of us is this songThis is our song without a soulNow that you're goneWhat's left of us in this song
*******************

i'm so confused

to laugh or to be sad
to think or not to think
to say or not to say
is real or just illusion
to contiune or to stop
to use my brain or just follows my heart
to open my eyes or to close it

YOU
make me so blur
make me so sad
make me say so much
make me fall for you
make me can't live without you
make me ....
left me thinking
left me hanging
left me in hell
left me alone
left me ....

I
can't help but deny
can't help but love
can't help but think
can't help but look
can't help but long
can't help just can't
....

things
just can't be told
just can't be clear
just can't be explained
just can't be what i want it to be
just can't be what you asked
just can't be the way i hope it to be
just can't be ....

damnlost~~
can someone please guide a me out of this darkness.
hope that you can be the one.
is just a hope.
just a dream.
is just a just ....

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@03:09

24oct06- went to Vivo, nice place, just love it.

25oct06-went to East Coast PArk.
nice place, just like i thought.
nice people. fun day with them. very entertained by them.
crowded with so many people.
stinks like a skunk after playing and cycling.
ate till so full. potato salad rocks. what more can i ask for.
met lots of new friends. Hebe alike. woohoo~~

**not in the mood to add in details.**

love
msparanoid

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Sunday, October 22, 2006 @20:20

Drinking
It's all a mistake to ever touch alcohol~~
Feels high
Feels good
Feels happy
Feels the freedom
This is what drinking will bring at the first sip.

Feels concussing
Feels head throbbing
Feels the alcohol reacting
Feels like puking
Feels damn lost
Feels miserable
Feels like dying

Never ever to touch it again

was the first time i drink so much.
A bottle of 4.8%- turn red and burning
A little of 21%- feels like drinking sunblock
A taste of 10%- gets high on coke
A couple of mouth of 6%- nice drink. got hoke.
Faint after that. can't even open my eyes. cant get on my feet. head spinning. talking crap(evenmore when i'm drunk). can't control but keep smiling. become like an idiot. *shake head*

Aftermath- concuss on the bed, like nobody's business. Then off to the sofa. continue concussing cos i feel like shit inside. and just wanna sleep away my misery. Can't wake up, can't sleep. Want to kill myself but won't die. Manages to survive somehow~ but still feels like shit now.

Never will i ever drink. Milk will be fine for a kid like me.I love milk. and milk love me.

gotta continue with my school work. if not i;ll be in deep shit. ciao!!

in drunk self
msparanoid.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Saturday, October 21, 2006 @09:29

THings might not be what you see it is.
I might not be what you think i am.
IF you choose to think like what you see, by all means, i don't care. You are just too childish to have that thinking.

I don't seem to care doesn't mean that I don't know. You just don't know the truth. When I see how surface you are, I can't help but smile to myself. How dumb you are.

I might seem very happy everyday but I do think very deep. I might look playful but I can be serious. Life is short; a day last 24hrs happiness is what i look for in them.

Think all you want, talk all you can , I won't bother and don't even care to.To me Certain things are just too insignificant and unimportant to bother about.

Believing in what you see. Concluding with what you think.
Congrats you are still young in your mind.

Reflect on yourself before saying about others. Life is not just all about other people. Please think about yourself who is begging for attention.They had enough of all those"unnecessary" attention that you have given <== And thanks for that.

We will still be us, and nothing will change. Life will still go on even thought haze is bad. Time ticks by tho' it sux big time. This is just what is life all about.

*always look on the bright side of life*

For those
Usual things you do
Cause no impact
Keeping to myself
Often allow me to see
Far and Deep
For what you
Predict is without
Evidences
Or
Prove
Live my life
Even with this shit.

end~
msparanoid

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Wednesday, October 18, 2006 @20:36

171006- was really blur these days, dont really know why.... maybe is because, i'm just too blur to realise the truth till now. Haha.
started class at 1100hrs, surprising, i'm the first to reach. Woohoo~ it was SB Talentine and there were large crowds at SB foyer for the pass few days. They really can sing. Lessons were just the same like before.Yawns.Tired~ Personally looking forward to STSB and DVID. Watch films during STSB. Then went shooting during DVID. Station ourselves-grace;chelle; and me- outside the lectures hall. Lots of people were walking down while we were shooting and acting. So embarrassing. BUt ~ it was fun. REally funny while we were acting. People just can't help but look at our direction when they saw the Camera. * felt like a pro* Had a great laugh at our own story of shooting. ==Soldiers & exercise planet==

Went to main library to look for dumbdumb. Seems to take her forever to do her datasheet or whatsoever. *shakehead* Chinchin was there too. and a few of her classmates. Feel the pressure in the library so many people rushing there work.Haha. and i'm playing solitair and pinball on my lappy. from the corner of my eye( the right eye) saw something that make me sick. THere is this indian guy( not being races here) messaging some girls on this friendster look alike thing. Saying stupid things.*sickening* weirdo.. all he look at is their body. enough of him....thinking of it makes me sick.

I wanna say==> i didn't torture dumbdumb. Just entertaining her on the way home. But seems like she dont appreciate it. *pout* so sad~ lots of people longed for it and you are complaining that you're being tortured? can't believe it. She just can't stop whining. And keep asking me to bring the berms and bag. since i landed in singapore she has been saying it till today. *faint* she never get tired of doing so. haha, and i die also don't wanna bring to her. *grin* being evil here ==> that's my favorite hobby.
*stop playing on the bus, so childish, dumbdumb. hahaha...* having a great time on the bus~ isn't it??

181006- i was like super early for 3DF, and the first to reach. Can you believe this?? the FIRST to reach, finally!! woots~ class was about catching his pace like before. Speak like bullet train DO like lightning.*blur* can't catch him like always. "expect me to take you step by step, no way".. we're to do it by ourselves by referring to maya6 textbook. and the teamwork in DDM1A23 is just so perfect. None of us brought the book. Woohoo!! 1A23 rules. then came our survior~ those with books. *powerpuff.. just in time trying to save the world~ they made it just in time. the POWERPUFF GIRLS!* hmm, a couple are guys tho'. Erwin is just sarcastic for the first hour of the class. keep saying stupid things and repeating the fact that we didn't have the book.*fine!*

then he is just jealous that i;m happy everyday. or rather on the days he sees me . Erwin,"what you eat everyday gena?" me," huh? what?" ( didn't get him, too into my work) . E,"you eat candy everyday?" .me(stunt+blur),"why??".E,"why are you so happy everyday?". me(finally getting him),"oh no, i eat gums everyday." E,"oh really? where you get so much supply of gums?" Me,"oh? i have a gum tree at home, dont you know?"* wahaha*.. and he just dont believe.. hahaha, and deny that he can't open my gum bottle at first.. somehow he manages and boasted about his achievement. * clap for you then* 3DF is just full of laugher today. FUN.. kinda enjoy it tho' it really irritates me when i'm trying to get things the way i want it to be. And the worst thing is, he chase me out, ME!! you know, me out of the class. WTH~ i bring joy and you are asking me to leave, and say he doesn't want to see me.*faint* someone is just too jealous that i;m happy everyday, and he is not. HE admit it. woots~~

Went to T621 to wait for dumbdumb, to pass her berms. *faint* finally, peace once again. She just can't get over the fact that the bag suits me. haha~ too bad. GEMS~ was alright, rushing like crazy as usual. finish within an hour.*stunt*. She said lots of jokes today. and the aircon seems to be working super well during class, just so cold. Difficult to laugh. and she herself finds it lame and no one is laughing. POor her. * choose a finger then* wahaha...
went to FC5 to meet dumbdumb. saw kiwi, peishan and huisi. off to popular to get my drawing pencils. then slack at fc5 for awhile. OFf to SAC then to club to look for something that doesnt exist. *faint*.

~home sweet home~
the first day éver since school started. homw before sunset. woohoo. mum was shock. lol.slack till now.

gotta do my drawing and study my gem's notes( quiz coming). Then my maya scene( deadline near). then concuss infront of lappy.(love to hold lappy to sleep).

love
msparanoid

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Monday, October 16, 2006 @21:02

Was so over loaded with assignments.
-CRS article
-3DF skeleton
-REvise of GEM
-OOPM notes
- CAlender designs
-ICE meeting mintes

Woots~~ went all the way to esplanade library to study. Nice place to study. But it closes at 2100hrs. Manage to finish 3/4 of my stuff there.
Dumbdumb seems to take forever to reach. Just WOLS!! and BLUR!! *shake head*
We were both studying really hard. *grin* I was so hungry that i don't feel like doing anything. Yay!! finally went for lunch at 1600hrs. Woohoo!! but when it comes to lunch time, it's always a headache. We just can't decide on what to eat. *faint* roam the whole marinasquare and suntec in search for food. And we settle ourselves at Suntec Foodcourt. *satify*
filled our tummy and off we go, back to the library.
Continued with our work. But the food is reacting and i feel like sleeping. BUt still manage to complete my minutes. and my 3DF bedroom scene. Woohoo. *pat on shoulder* " well done, gena!!".

Change of location- to long john at 2100hrs as i've said that the library closes at that time, and we were sort of being rush out. The band is still playing. NIce songs~ nice voice~ nice place~ but i prefer my mp3.

Dumbdumb is just can't stop eating. Clam Chowder then fries. I had cookies and cream. And the conclusion is I HATE CHOCOLATEs!! Avoid chocolates as much as possible unless i'm CRAVING for it.
Finish my calender design and i concuss on the nice and comfortable chair that LongJohn has. With the comfort of my pillow named dumbdumb. Wahaha... she just can't be bothered about me.. too busy studying for her test. and i'm just busy dreaming away. was there till the last minute when they are pulling the shatter down trying to lock us in.

On the way to the station, von saw her long lost church friend. Wahaha.. just can't stop teasing her about that friend of hers. And we're avoiding her all the way to the bus stop. Thinking that we succeeded in doing so... she walk infront of her at the bus stop and then realised after doing so. That friend of hers keep turning around to see if it was her. Wahaha.. simply dumb. So we have to change to another bus stop to avoid her. *faint*

~home sweet home~

161006- a long long day today. Lesson starts at 0830hrs and suppose to end at 1700hrs. but fortunately ended at 1530hrs. The day had ended peacefully. What a day.
Had our CD meeting after CRS lesson.. Lot of opinions crossing during meeting. Objection voice and stuff. And it closes within 30minutes. OFf to union to sign ICE meeting miuntes. then to MIT club room. Ferg,zoe,ryan,edward were all there. Slacking. sit till 1645hrs, then walk around school to find T122. Hmm, was walking in circle i realized, ask like 3 person on the way. but still lost. Then clever me i notice that the block will be written above my head. And i found it. Woohoo. *satisfy* clever me~~

Dumbdumb took like forever to come out. *faint* it's so hazy outside and it's hot. wahaha. met Krayon at the bustop. She's going home. Lucky her, her bus came shortly after she arrive. we had to wait a few more minutes. HEe~~ we're blessed too. *grin*

end of my day, gonna eat banana now. NO milk!! kill me..

dumbdumb is so not herself these days. so aunty in her act and the way she talks. who keep whinning NON STOP. someone please save me!! her whinning skill can kill an angel==> cute one like me. *smile*

STOP WHINNING dumbdumb~~

banana+imaginary milk time

love
msparanoid dundun==> don't understand too . wahaha.

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Sunday, October 15, 2006 @10:31

DId lots of things yesterday(141006)....

Went to City Harvest with Devil. Supposing to reach by 1530hrs to get seats for the whole group of friends, but we were still chatting online at 1430hrs. Guess what to no surprise, we're LATE. as USUAL. wahaha. We manage to get the floor, but found out that they are all at other area. rush like crazy, haha. GOod thing that the aircon is super strong at that area, woohoo!! cool!! froze to death~

Then off to Downtown East for Krayon's birhtday bbq party. Shop for her birthday present at White Sand. *faint* took super long to grab a nice cute one. THere is simply nothing as CUTE as me. Wahaha~ Von seems to be not satisfy with those things i chose, hmmm, ain't they cute?? the carrot; the dog; the piggie... and we settle with PIGLET.

SHe is so crazy over the song playing in that shop, hmmm, so we wasted like 3 minutes listening to it.*thanks von!* wahaha, that's why we're kinda late for the bbq. IT's suppose to start at 1800hrs. We reach at 2130hrs(if i'm right).

****Valentine by Martina McBride****

Reached and found out that we're actually early. Started bbq-ing. Hmmm, ain't me suppose to sit and wait for food? haha. <==*joking* love to be bathe in bbq smoke. <==*lying* the fact is I Stink!!

*dont have to be sorry KRAYON!!*<== she just can't stop saying sorry. *shake head*

Woohoo~~ ain't you happy von, we're the first to take initiative to bbq?? haha~ *delighted* ==> i live on compliments, remember?
Still not too bad to be a cook, at least i get to have a maid for that few minutes/ maybe an hour. hahaha~
Got a new nick from Feli, bigbear(me);smallbear(von). haha, no more eeyore!!

Fill our tummy and realised it's super late. Gotta rush home. Took bus12, hmmm... to somewhere. It's not the destination that is important, it's the journey to the destination that is. Thinking that we can have some peaceful time on the bus, hoping to catch some sleep.*sleepyhead*. But the fact is, NOWAY!! being tortured for almost the whole journey.
A bunch of noisy and irritating people came on and spoil my sleeping mood. Blasting Techno music(or whatever it is). Speak super loudly, moving from one seats to another like they are playing musical chair.*faint* oh~ faint already also will be awaken by them.*sigh*
They Got off finally--- woohoo!! *thanks so much people*
Sleeping time.. can't even bother where the bus is taking me. Dont even want to know. Zzzz~~
Oh~finally reached, the bus is going to sleep. I'm at SGH,bloodbank. haha.See devil home. Hmmm, her brothers are so funny. Two to one bike. Oh~ there are lots of things to eat at her residental area. MUst go and eat next time. Took a cabby home. concuss in the cab.
*dumbdumb skunk hates water*.

end of an amazing day~

love
msparanoid

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Saturday, October 14, 2006 @02:30

Could be your eyes Could be your smile Could be the way you freed my mind. You precious touch caressed my soul. You gave me everything I need. And now I'm lostLost forever

Lost forever And you said this is going nowhere, girlAnd you said I turned my back onYou said I'm not the only one for you

Please give it one more try for the sake of our loveLet's give it one more chance coz I can't give you upI can't live one more day without you in my armsI could never find another, like you

Could be the lies Could be my pride Could be the days and nights so wildCould be the times I wasn't there And all the nights we didn't share And now you're lost. Lost forever

Lost forever
And you said this is going nowhere,girlAnd you said I turned my back onYou said I'm not the only one for you

Please give it one more try for the sake of our loveLet's give it one more chance coz I can't give you up I can't live one more day without you in my arms I could never find another, like you

I can't sleep, I can't live without you by my sideSo cold(so cold)So lost without you as my guideYou made me realise I'm nothingNothing without you

Please give it one more try for the sake of our loveLet's give it one more chance coz I can't give you up I can't live one more day without you in my arms I could never find another, like you

Baby give me one more try

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@01:35

to you:

0130hrs- i really dont know what is happening, but i have to say that i'm really sorry for being so busy lately. Neglecting you. It's my bad i would say. 10 modules lots of assignments club stuff (just realised is just excuses). I should have plan my 24hrs properly at least giving you 2 hours a day.

I really know how much you miss me, cos i miss you just as much. YOu might find me with not so much passion, but i love you just as much. Just that it's not shown out like before.

I know that you have your own life to live; and i have my own. But can you please don't just walk out of my life without warning. It hurts whenever you leave in a rush. Leaving me behind staring at the blank space.

I really feel my lemon reacting when you told me those things. But i really don't wanna restrict your freedom to know more people and make more friends. And i don't have the right to. I didn't know that this will make you feel that i don't care anymore, and i will leave you.

*sigh* you know that one day without you is like hell to me, how is it possible that i would ever leave you.

It really did bring back those memories, those good time we had together, the many many good and bad days. And believe that those days will only be memories, as better ones are coming. So long we are together.

How i would smile to myself.
How i would miss you every second.
Our objection game every night before going to bed.
How we would nag at each other.
Promises we made when there are other people around.
How i live on your compliments, hugs and kisses.
How i would tease you.
HOw i would flirt with you.
....lots more....

HOw those people trying to spoil our relationship
How those bad days came and go
HOw our relationship were put into tests
How we prove those people wrong.
How we move on hand in hand; heart to heart

LOve it when you call my name.
Love every single part of you.
Can't help missing you.
Can't stop loving you.

If you think that what you have decided is the best for you and me. i respect that decision. But i can't promise that i can accept that. Maybe time can heal everything. Hoping that tears can wash all those memories you've given me away.

I wonder how can i squeeze two heart into one space, as i will always have yours in me. Where can my rejected heart goes?

~left lost and lonely~

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Wednesday, October 11, 2006 @21:34

First day in school this week. Really miss campus alot. Lots of assignments to complete. *faint*

-GDIT calender design (by Friday)
-GDIT Trexi Design + report(by tomorrow)
-GDIT read up lecture & practical notes( miss lesson)
-CR find article(by saturday)
-3DF scene(skeleton by saturday)
-CD presentation
-read up GEM notes(blur in lesson again, haiz, as usual)

Lesson was kinda slack today. ONly 3DF practical. Erwin was teaching in a lightning speed. Who can catch up man. I'm so blur. Wahaha, but i still got it done. Lunch was a rush as he release us late + FC4 was so pack. GEM time!! Love it cos i'm always left blur and confused in her storytelling session. hmmm~ amazed with her story about DNA stuff.( always have so many stupid story about those DNA structure) wahaha...
Off to main library... waited for vonne and chin2 to complete their datasheet. hmm, seems that they took quite sometime. wahaha.

Movie time!! FInally get to watch Rob-B-Hood. Louis is so cute!! Matthew is so cute too!! This is a really nice movie. Funny funny~~~ we just can't stop laughing. *tired* ... laugh for almost 2hrs.... kinda touching too.*sob* worth to watch.

My mum is just irritating. WTH, just dont admit that she is in the wrong. HAte her attitude!! Give my wintermelon biscuit away. *Pissed*. Not even a sorry. Giving excuses to cover up her mistake. Always like that, but whatever it is, just hate her!!! don't wanna talk to people like her, waste my time and breath.
Teach kids to say sorry when they are in the wrong and you? giving excuses. That's all you do. I really wonder what is that in you that can teach US?? *shake head + disappointed*

Blasted music!!!
Fine now, wahaha, it always work(try next time pals).... just love to be alone in my little room. woots~~ surrounded by music and everything i like( louis, lappy, tigger, and MYSELF!!)

Got 101 things to do
But I'm Gonna SHIT FIRST!! wahaha, see you!

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Friday, October 06, 2006 @22:01

Day started at 830hrs....DIgital audio. Today's practical was to edit a tape of recording. My ears are going deaf repeating and repeating a part of it thousand of times. Lecturer was boring, i feel that i'm back to second school once again. Learning all the science waves..*headache* .... I was watching Ferg play NFS then we watched anime on Laptop... interesting anime. THen wathch him play O2jam. Wow~~ so pro in it. I;m amazed!! Cos i just can't catch up with the speed. THose notes( or whatever it's called) move like thunder. I'm stunt that's all, WOLS me!!

Met up with Flor, Mel, Von at FC5 for lunch. But i feel like shitting. *pout* school toilets are just DIRTY ew~~~*puke*. Got feel outside but once you're in, the feel just vanish~

Went to Lavender to update my picture with msISIT. (more nick- yea, true; nermind)... wahaha, she kinda annoyed by those nick. YAY!! I just enjoy making irritated. woohoo~~ *childish you gena*.

Passport photo looks like SHIT, so ugly, but whatever. Just look at me real life. Just so cute! wahaha.*thick skin*. yaya, i've got 6inches of foundation on my skin. Woohoo~~
WAiting time for updating new photo takes forever. Wait till we dozed off in a crowded and noisy level2. I was kinda shocked by the crowd today. Everyone is going overseas??

Down to Bugis to find socks for mummy, OMG!! can't get those cheapo ones for her. so got her adidas, dont think she will treasure those nice and expensive sock. Haiz, what a waste. *shake head*
THen to BUgis street, my second time there, still so warm.hahaha. I got to know more about it today. Increase of more pleasant looking stores. Quite interestin place, with lots of interesting looking people. AMazed once again. Felt like a foreigner at that moment. So afraid that i might get lost and everything. Found out that i;m kinda blur these days.

Oh! mswong message me suddenly. wahaha~ shocked actually. Hmmm~~ had been ages since we last meet up. Gonna catch up with her someday. woohoo~~

BAck to school to paint Talentine banner. Moody once again~ found out that i enjoy the process after it's all over.

Today's SP Musical, Super Star, well done SP ... lots of people going, so in club people. All so well dressed, and us?? painting banner and sweating like crazy ( sweat is for animals), haha, but anyway. Just hot!! Rushing like crazzy cos have to finish by 630pm, somehow manage to clear at the very last minute. And everyone seems to disappear in a snap of the finger. woohoo~ super power!!

GOing home... the train was SUPER CROWDED. Just hate it!!!

so crowded yet can play.... wahahha

And play....

And play....

Trevor!!!

Flor and ME.. play and play...
Self entertainment on a crowded train, destress~

Home at last~~

love
msparanoid

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Thursday, October 05, 2006 @23:38

THursday

Was late for lesson today. First lesson CD, listened to Daryl's(CD lecturer) story for like near 3/4 of class. Wahaha, i was so engross in his story. Look engross but inside i'm sleeping away.

Break was the BEST!! PIZZA.. woohoo.. I'm LOvin' It!! isn't it Macs song?? wahaha... I'm so pregnant after meal... 5 months pregnant, with my pizza baby. I had trouble getttin myself to SB from FC5.. with my stomach on the floor... drag it all the way up the 'hill'.. tired~~

Kinda high during drawing lesson, or rather from break till beginning of drawing class. I love Drawing class, hmmm~~ thought i said it before. HAhaha. My master piece above. Nice right!! ( this is not a question) wahahah~~ anyway, i can only hear those nice comments. (peace out) Vonne just cant draw.. she force me to say it's nice... Haiz~ *dear God, i told a lie today* hahaha, those plants?? With a stick and two leaves( okok, they look like plants dumbdumb) And those bacteria looks very disguisting... but i guess it's a pleasure to see them grow(sounds sick)... wahaha~~

Banner painting~~ i get moody when i paint. I think i'm so like an art person, wow~~ cool right. haha~~ i can be not noisy and less high at times. OH~~ when it is banner time!! GOt high on Coke and we started playing with those paints. Childish isn't it?? That's US!! dumbdumbDevil;Kiwi;Mountain... wahaha, just can't stop playing. Devil ate paint!! think she'll die tonight. muhahaha *evil* ...

that's about it. Tired~~ Night guys.. got tonnes of things to do, still can't sleep.... *pout*

* stone on my eye lids.... merry go round in my brain....forming tyhoon every seconds with my mouth.... concussing time!!! wahaha*

love
msparanoid

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Tuesday, October 03, 2006 @19:52

The day started with a heavy downpour....
My day started with a tear....

School was basically quite alright, started late.
I was completely wet when i walk to the bus stop in the rain. I know it's raining, but i refused to take the umbrella. SIMPLY HATE umbrella. Wasn't quite in the right mood. BAd hair day. my lappy in my bag is pulling me to the ground. Walking up to SB was a chore everyday,especially today. Pace was slower than a snail.

Life seems to be missing something....

Lesson goes on as usual, OOPM; STSB; DVID. class was slack. My mood changes in the mid of STSB. Got high at DVID. Jennifer was funny. And i would like to complain.... she speaks like a bullet train today. Gosh~ we are going to JApan!! But i still got my nice little clip out while whining.

list of things to be completed

-cut my long ugly looking hair
-change my passport picture(i look too cute now, so have to change)
-buy perfume

list of school work

-draw a corner of my house(toilet you mean??)
-brainstorm for calender(in my dreams you mean??)
-read some notes(but i dont know what i wanna read)
*FAINT*

end of day

love
msparanoid

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Monday, October 02, 2006 @21:45

Today went to FC meeting and then to town ONCE AGAIN....
MEet that dumbdumbDevil(D3). She's like late but she say she is not but.... whatever it is, i was waiting at the entrance of wisma. No aircon, i cant believe it, it's town and NO AIRCON. I was so tired almost got heat stroke. wahaha....

Went to ART FRIEND to do some last minute shopping for school stuff. WOooosss.... love that place, spend near 20 bucks for a few material. *heart ache* thanks to my drawing module lecturer. wahaha.... but i really love her lesson.

Our journey begins....

vonne saw this les partner and ask me to see, i was like too slow to catch them but i'm dying to see how they look like.... so i ran to the front, in front of them to see and act as if i'm walking back, wahahaha... er.. they look perfect together. *evil* if they were to be seperate, ops~ more single people around. *super evil now* .but really not very cute.... lol.

Then it's SUNDAY!! YAy!! Sundae time. nice guy at mac in town. Rooney thanks so much for the Sundae mix, you made my Sunday very Sundae indeed. so COOL!! I'm Lovin' It... woohoo~
Devil and Angel will be trying this around the Mac in Singapore, hopefully they are all nice MacStaff... Just like rooney. see you again!!

Devil was really evil to walk to and fro that cheesestick store to get what she wants. haiz~~ first bought tiramisu then still not satisfy, walk back all the way from heeren to buy cheese stick. *faint* really can't stand her, Maybe i should just sit. wahaha( laughing at my own joke).
Joke of the day!!! she calls instant noodle steamboat, wahaha... let's treat her steamboat(to her is instant noodle).

oh according to her i almost fell, but the TRUTH and the FACT is, she was like talking and walking and pushing me into the small tiny little drain.... so to say, i almost fell thanks to her. " thank you so much, devil" wahaha....

oh saw this group of VIVO city advertising poeple. Wahaha, so cute and funny. Cheering on the street. thought of camps. GO on people... Yvonne wanna join you guys. await her to join. *clap*

and her eyes never stop looking at people... and my eyes are always close. she will comment on certain people and i will say "huh?? what?? where??" the moment i open my eyes.... "gone already!" ... i just love sleep walking.

end of my day with that dumbdumbDevil.... tired....
concuss infront of my computer till 2 and she still didnt reply.... so i concuss again till 5.
it's kinda fun to CONCUSS infront of laptop till day break. wahaha, can try next time and join our concussing team. Weee~~~ it's FREE.

love
msparanoid

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

Sunday, October 01, 2006 @14:26

...Devil and Angel forever...

ain't they cute? wahaha.... turn out well...

*not for sales*

- wanna see them and touch them? see the name on their belly?? find that two person. They will be seperateed after today. Wahaha...

belong to

mischieviousAngel & cuteDevil

love

msparanoid

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy

@00:25

What The Hell !!!
What The Heaven !!!- this is our style.

copyright belong to
cuteDevil+mischievousAngel

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what a day.... it's a wet day.
Went cycling today hoping to roam Singapore.... it started raining like crazy when i reach Chinatown. *faint* stuck at Outram park MRT station. Hungry, wet, thirsy, and everything bad.(no more powerpuff girls)... wahaha...

then came my savior, who is like so blur and WOLS.... at least there's a savior, but can i have a choice next time?? *puppy eyes* PLease~~ lol

Finally, kind taxi uncle.... so nice of you to save me and my savior and my baby. Home sweet home. Take me home to a place i belong. Wow~~ nice singaporean. 1 in a thousand. Love that nice uncle. So nice so nice, just so like me. Helpful!! hope that you guys can have a chance to meet him. May fate bring you to him, which mine did TODAY.

Church day.... Nice band, nice song, nice people. What a place to be in on saturday, especially a rainy Saturday. CITY HARVEST ROCKS. That's why i can't eat macSUndae. wahaha.

town once again. But saw lots of things. Spoil my appetite. *sweat* braless girl, did your nipple sticker slide off or what? please check by touching yourself, it's a disguisting. but a good laugh after our late dinner is nice. LMAO!!!

I'm so bloated after dinner, i feel my stomach on the floor. I dragged it all the way home.. wahaha, now it's on the floor, really on the floor. Where it belong.

yay!! i can eat Sundae tomorrow, cos it's sunday.
meeting again.
see you!!
where is my CHildrens' day present??
concussing soon.

love
msparaniod

Yi got my secrets.
but; i only share it with my teddy